Radin's :)

life is not easy

2012-01-28T20:41:00.001+08:00

Life is not always easy. And that is a major reason why it is so precious.

Many of life's best rewards are possible only because you must work your way through difficult challenges to get to them. If everything in life were easy, there would be no opportunity for real fulfillment.

If the only things you experienced were pleasure and comfort, it would be impossible for you to fully appreciate them. A life of total ease and a complete lack of challenge would be unbearably tedious.

When the next challenge comes your way, when the next obstacle blocks your progress, find it in yourself to be thankful. For the difficulties provide you with truly magnificent opportunities to create value, to find meaning and fulfillment in living.

The challenges enable you to give of yourself and to make a real difference. And that's something you desire at the deepest level.

Life is not always easy. And because of that, you have the opportunity to make it truly great.

- Ralph Marston

p/s: delima 1, kenapa kunci bilik tv? T.T

Hari ni hari 'sarcastic' sedunia ke?

2012-01-27T18:18:00.001+08:00

Situasi pertama;

" tunggu siapa tu, radin? "
" takde tunggu siapa2. "
" tunggu suara ke? "
" suara? Apa tu? "
" tunggu group study ke? "
" owh. Tak lah. Hari ni tak ada. "
" amboi, tak berganjak tadi masa kat lab satu kumpulan. "
" kenapa? Salah ke? "
" hurmm, tak adalah. "
"......"

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Situasi kedua;

" radiiiinnn!"
" haii! Korang stay (fakulti) sampai pukul berapa?"
"sampai malam. "
"woaa, hebat nye!"
" ingat study group korang je ke hebat?"
"........."

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Situasi ketiga ;

"radin! Radin fathiah. "
"hahah. Pelik2 jelah kau ni. "
" nak pergi mana ni? "
" pergi makan. Then terus balik kolej. "
" tadi stay mana?"
" bilik engine. "
" owh. Bilik perbincangan korang tu?"
" mana ada. Kitorang biasa kat tempat lain , sgs 6h. "
" owh betullah. Bilik korang tu. Tak stay ke?"
" takpelah, aku agak down sikit la hari ni."
" kenapa?"
" humm. Adalah. "
" study group ke? "
" tak adalah"
" Tulah. Aku rasa study week ni tak perlu study group. "
" habis tu, kau tadi? Yang ada S tu semua?"
" owh, tu diorang punya. Memang pada aku sepatutnya study week, belajar sendiri2 je. Study group untuk belajar masa ada kelas je. Bila kita belajar, then tak faham, barulah tanya dalam study group. "
"....."

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Cukup sarcastic, bukan?
Mungkin tak pada korang. Pada aku ya.
Cukup2 lah wahai sahabat. Aku pun manusia juga. ;(

P/s : terdapat dua situasi aku berhadapan dengan orang yang sama.
P/ss : alhamdulillah, pengalhiran hari yang baik oleh sahabat2 yang lain. Terima kasih semua. ;)

P. E. N. A. T

2012-01-27T14:38:00.001+08:00

"radin, kau tidur pukul berapa?"
"pukul 12. Kenapa?"
"owh? Tak, kau nampak penat. "
" semalam aku settlekan angkat barang. "
............

Salamualyk semua.
Alhamdulillah, barang semua dah settle pindah.
Orang kata tak permanent sampai next sem pun bilik tu.
Hopefully permanent la eh? Penat lah pindah2.
*this doesn't mean i already love that place ke apa, cuma kepenatannya tak dapat nak digambarkan.
In the middle of study week, otak penat belajar, fizikal guna untuk angkat barang2 pula. ;(
Lagi satu, keliling budak dentist kot. Nak kawan? Naiklah tingkat atas. :(
Enough with pindah2 ni, dah basi.

I was quite upset with this one person just now.
Nak marah? Hurm, tak boleh. Since kawan baru. Lain jantina lagi.
But hey, sila jangan selfish.
Memang la mulut aku cakap 'okay, takpe. ' tapi, as a normal human being, takkan kau tak rasa bersalah apa ke?
Memang benda ni small matter. But still?

'aku rasa macam buang masa je cover 2 topic je?'

Kau cakap benda ni aku lagi marah kot. N kalau lah kan kau tebaca benda ni, aku just nak kau tahu aku takdelah marah sampai nak makan kau ke apa.
Be considerate. Ada yang tak baca microbe sampai habis kot. Sebab nak baca tajuk tu. Dahlah kitorang kena divide energy, guna otak n fizikal untuk kemas n belajar, kau boleh cakap macam tu. Masa lagi?
Bukan nak merungut. Ini realiti.

To that person, since aku tak boleh nak marah kau depan2.
N aku tak boleh nak cerita kat orang, nanti consider mengumpat.
Tulis kat sini is the only option i have. Untuk lepaskan segalanya. Aku tak harap kau minta maaf ke apa. Aku just bengang.
Lepak lah. Marah ni cuma sementara.
Aku just harap tak berulang je.
Okay. Bye.
Wassalam!

Satu lagi entry tak bermanfaat. Harap maklum.

P/s : sekarang aku dah rasa okay. Boleh sambung study.
P/ss : aku ada dengar juga orang kata aku garang. Hurm, baguslah.
P/sss : beware korang, ada group fb yang suka gossip2 telah diwujudkan.

PT vs Pindah Kolej

2012-01-19T20:29:00.003+08:00

Salamualyk semua!
Hopefully korang tak berada dalam keadaan serabut seperti kitorang ni.

Pt vs pindah kolej?
Apahal pula kan?

Taraaa.

Inilah sebabnya.
Kalau korang apa korang rasa?

Sebenarnya aku pun tahu lambat. Aku tengah syok lepak main dengan kaki2 kat lab anatomy.
Dia hantar kat pintu bilik pukul 11 lebih.
Suruh clear bilik hari ni juga.
Weh, mustahil weh.
PT kot esok. :(
BTN lagi.
Why delima why?

And being budak-suka-stay-fakulti, confirm2 la aku tak balik tengah hari tu nak ambil kunci baru.
Memang susah pada mulanya aku nak terima yang aku akan tukar roomate. Dah lah nak final, nak kena adapt to a new environment lagi?
Serius, masa lab joints tadi benda2 kolej ni yang sibuk memenuhi ruang pemikiran aku. ;( sorry doctors!

Tapi aku dah boleh terima.
Aku akan dapat bilik baru.
Aku akan dapat roomate baru.
Aku akan dapat jiran2 baru.
Tapi satu je aku tak boleh terima, siapa nak tolong aku angkat barang2 tu? Especially the books? TT.TT

Anyway, korang tolong lah doakan aku untuk PT esok.
Kepala serius serabut. :(

"Allah tidak akan membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya..." (2:286)

wahai diri, tolonglah kuat.
Wassalam.

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" radin, stay ptar sampai malam ke nanti?"

"ah, takdelah. Letih kot."

"haha. "

" kau tahu tak, kitorang kena pibdah kolej?"

"korang? Kenapa pula?"

"kena pindah delima 1. "

"owh.. A'ah! Korang kaaannnn *buat action tangan* . Hahahahaha. "

eventhough kau tak cakap, aku dah faham. anyway, thanks sebab gelakkan kitorang.
-______-"

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P/s : dah lama juga aku tak menitiskan air mata untuk hal2 tak penting macam ni.

P/ss : topup kat koop kolej delima dah habis. :(

p/sss: thanks juga pada sesiapa yang offer kunci bilik tu. takpe. aku dah dapat terima kenyataan. ini semua kan rezeki. chill, okay? :)

birthday prank paling teruk!

2012-01-14T01:35:00.002+08:00

salamualayk!

hahah. kitorang baru saja selesai melaksanakan birthday prank yang agak teruk kali ini.
mangsanya adalah;
TAQWA JASNI

hahaha, sian kau.
tapi, takpekan? lagi kau akan ingat kat kitorangkan?

nak tahu kitorang buat apa?
biarlah kitorang simpan sendiri. kenangan terindah la konon. tak boleh share dengan semua orang. :P

anyway,happy birthday sekali lagi! XD

dandan edit post lepas prank.

at least, plan kitorang menjadikan? HAHAHA.

some of the food.
nasi goreng kampung, keropok ikan, kek chocolate, air teh and big apple!

thanks geng! thanks birthday girl.

ya Allah, kau peliharalah persahabatan kami ini. Uhibbuki fillah. :')

ingat lagi video ni? saja mengungkit kenangan. ;)
ingat tak macam mana, kita bersama-sama bersusah payah mengaharungi kesusahan bersama?
selalu dipinggirkan?
selalu di anak tirikan?
selalu orang salah faham.
but, that's what make the bond between us very tight, right?
just like how the irreversible anticholinesterase drug bound to the AchE esteric site, right?
seriously, i love each and everyone of you.
semoga kita juga akan sama-sama berjumpa di jannah kelak, sahabat. :')

wassalam.:)

p/s: pukul 9 pagi nanti ada talk pengurusan stress. looking forward to it.

p/ss: next on the prank list; nenek! hahahahah! sila bersedia.

p/sss : dah makin bertambah ahli study group. welcome, ahli2 baru! :D

cerita kosong

2012-01-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

salamualayk.

"radin, kalau nak belajar pathology, kena buka atlas. baru ingat."
heh. buku atlas of pathology, aku buka. selak bahagian index, lipoma.
ye, aku buka buku atlas. mata meliar ke lecture notes.
Lipoma. tak bergerak-gerak, sejak kekecohan kat PTAR pasal kecurian besar-besaran tadi.

atlas dan nota tersedia di depan mata.
teman sebilik bersiap untuk tidur.
"radin, nak tidur pukul berapa? kejut aku boleh?"
"tak tahulah lagi. tadi seronok berborak dengan ibu. tengah rasa happy. nak kejut pukul berapa?"
"pukul 3."
"pukul 3? macam mustahil je? insyaAllah, aku tak janji, tau."

perhatian dikacau untuk pertama kali.
alhamdulillah, gross appearance of lipoma dapat juga dikenali.

'Imran Zainuddin posted in MBBS UITM 9TH BATCH'
astaghfirullah, perhatian dikacau untuk kedua kalinya.
post pasal group sgs pharmacology.
dapat DR. ****D . kurang gemar. berdasarkan lecture2 beliau yang lepas, yang semuanya tidak difahami. :/
mulalah fikiran melayang.

okay. sedar kembali. sambung kepada liposarcoma.
heh. malignat form of lipoma rupanya. bezanya lipoma kat superficial. liposarcoma kat bahagian deep.
'cut surface is grey-white to yellow, myxoid and gelatinous'
myxoid? apa pula ni?
buka browser. tiba-tiba niat nak cari maksud 'myxoid' terlari bila tiba-tiba terpandang url blog sendiri. apa kes?
astaghfirullah,perhatian terlari buat kali ketiga.
bila dah buka blog,mulalah ber'blog-walking'. baca2 luahan orang,tiba2 aku down balik.
kenapa? ada cerita yang memang mengusik kalbu ini.
ah,tak perlu luah kat sini. tiada siapa kisah.
kembali ke nota dan buku.

'heh. aku nak cari maksud myxoid tadi.'
sekali lagi perhatian dilarikan. bukan maksud myxoid yang dicari, tapi blog yang dirai.
aku kena cakap sesuatu kat blog aku.

inilah dia.
sorry, tak bermanfaat pun untuk dibaca.
esok ada small group session untuk pharmacology. tapi aku lebih berminat untuk study pathology.
bye. wassalam.

p/s : inilah diri aku. kau tak boleh terima? suka hati.

p/ss : tak sabar nak tunggu talk pengurusan stress. yep, aku stress. n aku sangat memerlukan talk tersebut.

p/sss : hari ni banyak orang tweet nak berubah? kenapa tiba-tiba? aku nak kena berubah juga ke?

p/ssss : thanks ibu for the loonnnnnggg phone call. rm8.73 tu. nanti pecah rekod lain,eh? hehehe.

memang lumrah ke, cool banana?

2012-01-08T16:45:00.002+08:00

salamualyk.

"memang normal kan, perempuan memang ada sikap yang cepat terasa?"
" a'ahla kot. even aku yang biasa sorang2 ni pun, akan terasa bila roomate aku lepak dengan orang lain."
" tulah."
"aku rasa memang lumrah. tapi, cara kita handle feeling tu je yang lain2. kalau pandai handle,okaylah."
" betullah."
" kalau aku, aku terasa, aku diam je.then macam tengok juga berapa hari untuk kembali normal."

.....

semalamnya (Jumaat) kitorang ada this one program called,
The Pearls of Life: Uhibbuki fillah.
well,basically they told us about ukhwah and everything.
then,diorang cerita. pasal sepasang bestfriend ni.
gaduh and putus kawan, just sebab buah epal. epal, bestfriend dah belas-belas tahun boleh gaduh.
sedih, memang sedih kan?
semuanya sebab bersangka buruk dengan kawan tu.macam dia dah berubah la apa lah.
"Sesungguhnya selemah-lemah ukhwah ialah dengan berlapang dada (bersangka baik)"
sebab tulah, bersangka baik, memang memainkan peranan penting dalam hidup kita di dunia ni.
bare in mind, radin!

okay, let's move on to the next story;
korang pernah dengar ni?

awesome gila makan kat sini!
8/10 stars! sedap, tapi masalah lambat jela. tak cukup kakitangan mungkin?
tak ramai orang pun. lengang. jomlah memeriahkan lagi kedai ni!
harga dia pun okay. harga standard.

chicken chop and fish and chips.

ni la highlight kedai ni, banana!

banana with honey, banana with chocolate and cheese, banana with chocolate and butter.

sedap! :D

macam kat Bandung tu kan? hehe.

bukan makanan je awesome, air pun awesome!

especially diorang punya chocolate shake.

last but not least;

thanks izzati ( si tudung pink) belanja all those banana!

lain kali score PT A,belanja lagi eh? haha. JK.

siapa lagi score A yang nak belanja?

i'll be glad to! hahah.

that's it for now.

tomorrow is monday, people!

take care!

wassalam.

p/ss : so far the second step is quite hard to do, nanti dah berjaya, baru boleh post up kat sini. i'm still trying, dr damayanti. :)

p/ss: "Jom belajar!" bukan "jom demo!" - poster2 macam ini merata-rata kat uitm sekarang ni.

hidup bagaikan roda

2012-01-06T21:08:00.001+08:00

salamualyk.
title sound too cliche, isn't it?
"hidup bagaikan roda,ada kalanya kita di atas, ada kalanya kita di bawah"
i just don't have the idea on what to put for the title.

anyway, PT2 result is out!
alhamdulillah, i manage to maintain my result, which is B.
"well, great student comes from those who score B and C" -selalu menjadi penyedap hati. :)
congrats to those who improve and manage to maintain their result.
for those who don't, takpe MSK ni kasi pulun, okay?
gempak lah korang kali ni ramai A and A+! eventhough i'm not one of them, aku tumpang gembira. :)

so, finally i can say buhbye to T!

how was the paper?
:(
kenapa?
i don't feel my whole week berkorban tak belajar anatomy,physiology n biochem untuk titas berbaloi. i can't really answer the paper.
"banyak peluru habis menembak." - bak kata orang.
esei? :'( i don't know. high expectation pada diri sendiri mungkin? TT.TT
ke, kau tahu aku tak sabar nak tinggalkan kau, T? touching laaaaa.
*sila abaikan,hanya monolog sendirian.

so just now, after physiology sgs (small group session),
i had a nice talk with Dr. Damayanti.
she's nice.eventhough she can't remember my name,only akashah's, but that's fine with me. adatlah perempuan lagi senang ingat nama lelaki dan sebaliknya. no hard feelings.
well, we talked about our study of course.
what is the most effective way to study. strategies. group discussion. bla..bla..blaa.
she was so semangat to tell us, that the conversation last for about an hour! cool kan?
so, i've taken the first step!
by buying this small notebook to write on 'what to do list' for the next day.

hopefully, aku akan jadi lagi kuat untuk carry out the next step.
we'll do it slowly,this time.step by step.
hopefully juga aku istiqamah. amin.amin.amin.

kad matriks! taraaaa!

lanyard dan eiffel tower yang sering menjadi sumber inspirasi. :')

semoga dengan adanya kad matriks ni, aku akan lebih menyedari bahwa diri ini hanyalah student di uitm ini.
dan mengingatkan aku supaya belajar! belajar! belajar! *ceh, semangat gila.

anyway korang!
malam ni ada pertandingan busana muslimah. full support to wakil delima 3! hehe.
take care.
wassalam.

p/s : serius, dua hari tu buat aku tersenyum panjang. thanks kawan. :)

"budak fast track semua gambar okay."

"budak2 ambil gambar kat datc semua hitam, kan?"

"dah takde nama lain ke nak panggil group kitorang?"

"ada, budak hitam. hahahahah."

01/01/2012

2012-01-01T00:00:00.008+08:00

salamualayk.

tahun baru. ada apa dengan tahun baru?

azam baru?diri yng baru?

namapun tahun baru, mestilah 365 hari yang lepas akan meninggalkan kita.

bertambah lah angka umur kita.

dah masuk 2-series la. :(

alhamdulillah, syukur kita panjatkan kepada pencipta kita. sebab masih diberi peluang merasai tahun baru.

walaupun hanya menyambut tahun baru dengan menjawab soalan2 sgs. tanpa keluarga mahupun roomate di sisi. tahun baru tetap tahun baru.

semoga hari-hari yang mendatang, menjadikan kita lebih matang. dan mendekatkan lagi diri kita pada pencipta kita. amin. :)

selamat tahun baru!

jangan lupa siapkan sgs pharmaco,biochem, physiology!

jangan lupa baca myiasis!

jangan lupa bawa pen warna2 untuk lecture anatomy!

jangan lupa baca titas,exam khamis ni!

jangan lupa print slip exam!

jangan lupa buat sufo, entrance/exit survey!

jangan lupa daftar koQ, bel, titas sem depan!

*ada gaya imran tak?* haha. :P

take care!

wassalam. :)

p/s: kita-kitalah yang akan menjadi pendakwah berkot putih. kalau bukan kita, siapa lagi? insyaAllah. :)

p/ss: banyak sangat perkataan 'tahun baru' post kali ni. =.=

so many things in my mind

2011-12-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

salamualayk everyone!
:)
how have you been? so far so good?

biasalah, setiap hari pun busy kan? itulah padah jadi medical student. :(
minggu ni, agak pelik. setiap petang, korang boleh nampak aku lepak kat ptar annexe tu.
nak tahu kenapa?
sebab, minggu ni aku tak suka duduk kat bilik.
kenapa tak suka duduk bilik?
minggu ni bilik aku serabut.
hek eleh, bilik serabut pun nak bagitahu orang kan? apahal? =.=

okay,tak lawak pun.

sebenarnya nak cerita sini, besides all those muscle, nerves, vessels yang memang banyak gila tu, lately ni ada 2 benda yang turut menyerabutkan kepala ni seserabut bilik aku sekarang. :(
one of it, pasal kawan2 aku.
kawan mana? .............

bukan aku nak mencapub, menjaga tepi kain, busybody ke apa.
kalau korang perasan lah kan, ramai kawan2 kita yang dulu baik gila, lately ni macam tak tegur. tegur pun sikit-sikit la.
kenapa aku cakap ramai?
memang serius, bukan satu dua je aku nampak, nak sampai sepuluh kot!
kalau ada yang aku tak perasan ke lagi?
tapi serius, benda macam ni buat aku fikir.
pasal 'hablumminannas'. iaitu hubungan sesama manusia.

hablumminannas ni memang memainkan peranan penting dalam hidup kita kan?
lagi2 bila berjauhan dengan keluarga ni. kehidupan asrama.
kalau ada masalah, takkan korang nak suruh family korang selesaikan? mesti kawan2 juga yang dicarikan?
biasalah, dalam kehidupan kita, apa yang kita buat mesti ada batas-batas dan adabnya.
sama lah untuk membina ukhwah ni.

and aku tahu, dalam belajar medic ni kan, memang stress gilakan?
and sampai satu tahap, kau rasa macam down, loser gila, orang lain dapat catch up, kau tak boleh.
then, kau rasa macam nak marah semua orang. n kau akan jadi super sensitive on that time.
dahlah penat lagi? ada benda2 lain buat hal pulakan?
aku tak tipu, benda ni selalu jadi kat aku.
*n mangsanya haruslah roomate aku. hahah.sorry roomate. . :P
ala kadang, roomate aku pun sama, masam memanjang. sendiri faham lah kan?

bila waktu2 genting macam ni, salah sikit je from this one particular person, kau akan simpan dendam kesumat, sampai salah2 dia yang lama pun muncul.
kalau ikut diri memang nak hambur jekan, tapi kita kena ingat, kawan kita tu pun ada hati dan perasaan, n kita end up dengan simpan marah tu. diam lagi baikkan?
tapi betul, nak simpan marah bukan senang pada mulanya. orang yang dah datangkan kemarahan tu pula, kenalah faham. jangan provoke. ada pergi tanya, "kau marah ke?"
memang nak minta kaki/tangan la kan?

n come on people, kita dah 19 tahun. next year dah tak ada '-teen' dah dalam umur kita.
matang dalam menghadapi masalah. train diri daripada sekarang.
kadang bila korang marah kat orang tu, cuba fikir balik. "setimpal ke kemarahan aku ni dengan apa yang dia pernah buat/tolong korang dulu?" insyaAllah, eventually, benda ni akan tolong kurangkan marah tu.

bila benda macam ni berlaku, nak salahkan siapa pun, kita tak tahu.
kalau nak salahkan syaitan, boleh?

okay2. agak emotional kali ni. :(
sorry.

I JUST MISS THE OLD US.

kawan2, jagalah hablumminannas kita,okay?
take care! wassalam!

p/s : not specifically dedicated to anyone.

bye K! bye B! hello M!

2011-12-20T20:37:00.001+08:00

assalamualaik everyone!

so how have you been, huh?

life has been hectic for me.

i have this one penpal,whom i used to write an email once a week.

even she's complaining i'm too busy to reply her email.

can't help it. i'm a busy lady. :3

so, a short update here.

need to go to KRD n there'llbe meeting with pengetua kolej tonight.

told you,i'm a busy lady. *flip hair*

what's K? B? M?

taraaaaa!

K = Kesatria. :)

i'm officially free from kesatria!

no more rushing on thursday. no more kawad! a big yeay!!!

bye kesatriaaaaa!

oh yea, kitorang buat choral speaking masa dinner kesatria. comel tak?

it was my idea though. :P

next, B!

B = BEL (basically,it's an english class).

buhbye bel!

tak payah gembira sangat lah kan? next sem ada lagi. TT.TT

but at least, i'm free from you B for this module. tak payah serabut2 kepala malam selasa.

oh yea, test 2 (which is the final test) confusing kot. :(

target lulus je. all the best siapa yang tak ambil test lagi!

the final one, will be M!

hello M!

M = msk = musculoskeletal module

i just started this module last monday.hoho.

there's pbl for my first class. n i was the scriber. phewiiittt!

anyway, please be nice to me,dear muscles and bones!

well, i guess that's all for now.

see ya!

oh yea, i did enter the perbarisan untuk saf tu. saja2.

visitlah blog awesome ni for more pictures on that night, n ada video rasanya.

till then, wassalam!

p/s : weekend ni balik lagi. ho yeah! :)
p/ss : can't wait to say buhbye to T!
p/sss : PT2? errrrr. no comment. :X

random #111

2011-12-13T18:45:00.001+08:00

"radin mesti dah habis study kan?"

ayat paling psycho yang paling banyak didengari pada hari ini.

terima kasih kawan2. -________-"

p/s : i'm still struggling! 46 chapters,weh!

a good reminder.

2011-12-07T19:00:00.001+08:00

salamualyk!
so how have you been?
esok nak test kesatria? hurmm. chillax2.

kata-kata bawah ni macam nak bagi motivasi sebenarnya, tapi, mungkin kelemahan dari segi penyampaian, korang tak dapat pun memotivasikan diri. (apa ayat ni? =.=" )
this happened right after SGS (Small Group Session) for Molecular Medicine just now.

" have you get your PT result? I mean,your first PT result? "
" owh,daahh."
" dengar half of your batch fail? "
" .... "
okay, tu muqaddimah je. i was really motivated by her words. yeah what she said was right.
nak tahu apa Dr.Mudiana cakap?

" don't blame the system once you've failed, cause it's your choice to be here. you've made the choice kan? so,once you're in this system,you have to get use to this system. work hard to get use to it."
okay,seriously memang terkena pada diri sendiri.
memang 7 subjects memang berat buat diri aku.
tu tak masuk bel, titas n kesatria?
in fact, memang jealous dengar uni lain, medic, tiga subject utama je dulu.
kitorang, 7 kot! 2 kali ganda!
tapi,ini yang aku pilih kan?nak taknak kena harungi juga?
ayik mengeluh, tak bawa ke mana juga kan?

"i don't know. maybe you're too young. you still searching for what's the best for you. but please, don't be in "arrogant" state. don't think that once you've enter medical school, you're better than the others. jangan fikir lulus je. u need to work hard"
seriously people,what's the use of being arrogant kalau kau kena struggle dengan 7 subjects tapi diorang like 4-5? n kita tujuh2 subject membaca, diorang at least adalah 2/3 teori n math?
n everytime they ask you to hang out with them, u still got sgs need to be completed?
n somehow,kau rasa hubungan dengan kawan2 lama macam dah renggang, sebab kau busy sangat.
seriously, that's how i feel. nak rasa arrogant? tak sempat kot.
makin rasa down memanjang adalah. TT.TT but i believe, diorang faham. :)

"you need to build the positive attitude from the very beginning. in fact, kalau nak ikutkan sekarang pun dah terlambat. it should be from the very first class. the negativity u built inside yourself will bring effect once you're in the clinical year. n please don't be disrespectful to your lecturers, u only pick up the strength, the positive things of your lecturers."
this is what i've been trying to do for this past few months.be positive in everything i did.
but once benda buruk datang bertimpa-timpa. i just can't hold on. terus lemah longlai. TT.TT
n pasal lecturer, a full respect goes to all of you, lecturers. i mean, they are nice. try to talk to them. they'll try to help you as much as they can. as long as you ask.

"bila rasa tak kuat, think about your parents. eventually you'll realised what's the purpose of you being here. struggling so hard? you need to realise your responsibility, your drive and your desire for being here. yang paling penting ikhlas. ikhlas dengan ilmu yang diperolehi dan share ilmu tu dengan ikhlas. "
it do help a lot. memang kadang2 kita macam tiba2 terlupa tujuan asal kita kat sini.
n yeah, bila kita share ilmu kita, it helps a lot in your studies.

---------------------------------------

thanks a lot doctor! daripada ngantuk masa sgs, terus tak ngantuk.
yeah, memang kadang2 peringatan macam ni memang diperlukan.
this is a serious matter. kadang2 bila aku rasa berat, selalu je aku persoalkan, "medic ni memang bukan bidang aku ke?" insyaAllah, i'll stay strong.
sesungguhnya Allah maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hamba-hambanya kan?

sorry sebab buat korang baca benda2 panjang macam ni.
sebenarnya untuk simpanan sendiri, tulis kat sini, bila macam terlupa, boleh rujuk.
alang-alangkan?

anyway, take care!
wassalam.

p/s : i'm coming home, i'm coming home. tell the world i'm coming home. :P
p/ss : ujian bertulis kesatria esok! ujian kecergasan kesatria next thursday! PT2 next friday! presentation titas next friday! doakan saya! :)
p/sss : it do help me to release my tension bila jerit2 dalam group cheer. go team medic! :P

Galaxy SII

2011-12-03T21:24:00.001+08:00

finally, got to eat kenny rogers! :)) with all these people. plus, adilah!
*setelah mengharungi ceramah kesatria yang agak menyeksakan. -___-"
plus big apple!
tengok iman beli flavour durian tu, teringat ibu. :')
ibu, fathi belanja big apple nanti masa balik bp,okay? ;)

next mission ; subway after PT2. joommmmmm!

p/s: thanks pemilik galaxy sII for this pic. ingat, ni wallpaper untuk sebulan,okay! hahaha. :P

please take care of yourselves.

2011-12-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

salamualayk.

aku baru je dengar cerita pasal sorang batch mates kita ni.
if this 'kawan kita' happen to be the same person, sure, kau akan masuk dalam doa aku.

to 'kawan kita' ;
eventhough i don't really know you, kita pernah cakap pun, sekali je kot, dalam lab.
i was so sad to receive this kind of story. i was scared at first, bila fikir2 balik, kenapa nak takut? if i am in your shoe, how will i feel? how can i gather my strength to stand up again?
eventhough people may be annoyed or afraid of your acts,
it's not your fault anyway. maybe kau tak sengaja pun, it just seems that you can't control yourselves.
well, it involves your brain, obviously. thus, it may effect on how you act and think.
maybe you're not strong enough to face this things?
just believe in Allah. Allah did mention in Quran,
(لَا يُكَلِّفُ اللهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا... (البقرة، ٢:٢٨٦
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya." (Al-baqarah 2:286)
berpeganglah pada ayat ni. n have faith in Allah.
it's true, last week have been hard for most of us.
in fact aku, yang 'tough' ni pun kalah. rasa dah tak kuat. rasa macam aku tak boleh tahan.
talk to Allah, dia yang cipta kau, dia tahu kau punya kekurangan dan kelebihan.
trust me, kau akan rasa lega gila.
insyaAllah, He will guide you in everything you do.

"Ya Allah, kau kurniakanlah kekuatan kepada aku dan sahabat2ku menempuhi kesukaran dalam kehidupan kami sebagai pelajar medic,ini ya Allah. Hanya Engkau yang maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk setiap daripada kami,ya Allah." - Amin.

wassalam! take care!

p/s : please handle your stress well, people! n please. please take care of yourselves.

tukar course.

2011-11-30T19:07:00.001+08:00

salamualyk.
hey! how have you been, people?
so far so good?
mine was great! these two days have been good to me. alhamdulillah. :)

tukar course? siapa pula ni?

this happened yesterday, before BEL class.
" Radin, you've got to teach me. macam mana study nak eh? i don't want to score C anymore. "
" ahh? Radin punya cara belajar pun tak betul. "
" alaa,just teach me."
" Radin buat pre reading biasanya. then lecture pay attention la. tapi kalau lecture yang mengantuk sangat tu, fokus pada yang tak faham masa pre reading je."
" owh,post reading ? "
" Post reading hanya dibuat bila sempat sahaja. heehee. "
" owh, i really love medic. it's going to be a whole lot better without microbiology and parasitology kan?"
" for me,parasitology okay lagi, microbiology yang banyak sangat. :( "
" i don't want to drop out. dah 2 orang dah drop out. i've gone to far to drop out. "
" 2 orang? batch kita? lelaki ke perempuan? "
" a'ah la batch kita. perempuan. "

okay. teruknya la kan? aku tak ambil tahu?
nak kata busy belajar, sempat je gossip 'prince-princess' kan? hahah.
:P

but now i know. i was sad. yelah batch mates dah kurang. :(
tapi tak apalah kan, that's your decision.
mungkin medic ni bukan bidang korang. n insyaAllah you'll do better dalambidang korang pilih nanti.
takpe. nanti, kalau korang sakit, ingat je yang korang ada 200+ geng doctor!
all the best korang! :)
*btw,siapa those two people? ntahlah, aku pun tak berapa nak sure sebenarnya.

as for myself, i must improve myself.
luaran serta dalaman.
currently, i'm having a huge problem on microbiology! banyak sangat weeehh!
and the lecturer kept saying, "microbiology is easy to learn. their name SOMETIMES related to the disease."
doctor, can you see the word 'sometimes' in your sentence? ahh.tension sehh.
there's so many things to learn, to memorize, in a very short time.
ottoke? ( *what to do? in korean language )

nothing is impossible kan? i need to have plan!

anyway, take care people!
have a blast day!
n yeah happy birthday kepada pemilik cheeky bubbly girl !
sila datang bilik, tuntut hadiah awak. :P

wassalam!

p/s : esok exam kawad, kasut tak basuh. hahahaha. all the best geng MBBS berkawad esok! :D
p/ss : ibu, thanks for the multivitamin! dah rasa sihat sentiasa ni. hahah. :P

:)

2011-11-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

Lack of iron.

2011-11-23T19:07:00.001+08:00

alhamdulillah. i'm feeling so much better today. :)

i was so determine to donate my blood just now.
together with adilah n ann.

dengan confidentnya, isi borang.
pergi kat interviewer,

"adik tahu jenis darah adik?"
" tak "
terus la dia cucuk jari, ambil sample darah.
" hurm, adik darah B. "
" owh.. baru tahu. hehe. "
" kita tengok iron adik, pula. kalau lebih 12.5 baru boleh derma. kalau kurang tak boleh. "
" owh, okay. "
....mesin pun bunyi...
" ah, 11.3. tak lepas la adik, tak boleh derma. "
" owh okay, takpe. "

ikut kata akak tu, kalau normal, 11.5.
at the end, tiga2 tak boleh derma, sebab tak cukup iron. -__-"
tapi, takpe. aku dah tahu jenis darah, B ! :D

p/s : titas memang membebankan. sama seperti bel. jumaat ni test titas. minggu depan graded assignment untuk bel. hurm, baguslahhhh. :(

am i the only one feeling this way?

2011-11-22T20:13:00.002+08:00

salamualyk.

i thought today will be better than yesterday.
and as usual, you can see me smiling from the beginning of the class.
i was able to maintain that smile.
until.
the lecturer gave me my BEL test paper. at the very last few minutes before we went back to hostel.
okay,like apakah? perosak hari yang sempurna. -___-"

" kau dapat berapa? "
" adalah. "
" ala,bagitahu jelah,kan semua lepas 20? "
" aku tak. "
" tipu. "
" betul. buat apa tipu? "
" tak percayalah. "
" nah,tengoklah. "
" ...... "

to be honest, i think i got the lowest marks in my class.
screw you, implied main idea! and definitions!

2 days of downs. bad days.
how can i stay strong? :'(

Biarkanlah Hari-hari Itu Berlalu, al-Imam as-Syafi’e rahimahullah.

" oh Allah, ujian mu agak berat kebelakangan ini. bantulah aku. ;("

take care people.
wassalam.

p/s : thanks teman aku balik tadi. :')
p/ss : esok lab mm.
p/sss : i ~~got~~ bought the name tag too, btw.

i was demotivated on my first day. :(

2011-11-21T21:54:00.000+08:00

salamualayk!

first and foremost, i am quite annoyed with all those screams.

oh come on, bola je kot. kita perempuan lagi pun. -__-"

astaghfirullah. astaghfirullah. astaghfirullah.

n i would like to apologise if this post is quite personal.

so, today is my first day in uitm shah alam, after those 2 weeks holiday.

i was doing okay, at first. still, not great since i can't sleep last night.

and the day went smoothly. sampailah masa lab microbiology.

i became demotivated during the microbiology lab.

i don't know why. this demotivated thing always happened whenever there's microbiology lab.

eventhough i'm well prepared before the lab session, nah, i'll feel demotivated too.

like just now.

oh Allah, please help me?

i read the whole thing before the session, n yet i'm still lost in the middle of the session.

i'm not completely lost. but whenever they started to discuss (among themselves), aku akan rasa tersisih, like i don't know anything. :(

they were too advance, perhaps?

i was in a group with this two kakak lepasan diploma microbiology.

it was good though to have them in my group. whenever we don't understand anything, we'll just ask them, they'll explain everything.

tapi biasa la kan, bila tengah explain, dia akan tanya, "selain ini?" and i was like. "errrr?" padahal dah baca sebelum tu. and completely aku rasa macam loser gila. :/

and when they discussed, i can't really join them. reason? not that sure though.

like just now, they were discussing about sterilization.

it seems to me like they were uttering words that were completely unfamiliar with me.

at the end, i turned to haziq (which seem lost too), "diorang cakap apa ni?" his response, "ntah."

so at least aku ada kawan kan?

Kakak2 tu dahlah memang advance habis.

W, C, N n S dahlah selalu sisihkan aku. ke aku yang menyisihkan diri? :(
A pun nak ikut sama dah.

why oh why? :/

aku jahat ke? aku tak pandai ke? sampai tak boleh nak join korang. :'(

at the end, i just sat there, trying to understand what they're arguing about.

eventhough muka tak menunjukkan aku rasa loser, deep inside it hurts, man. really hurts.

fa sabrun jameel, wahai diri.

tapi, semua ni mungkin salah aku juga kan?

i shall be more confident and participate in their discussion.

i shall talk to other people too.

i'm so sorry people, you have to read this kind of post.

it just that, i can't hold it anymore.

i may seem happy on the outside, cause i'm trying my best to be positive in everything,

but sometimes, i just can't. :'(

a bit too emotional lately. hurmmm.

take care everyone. wassalam.

p/s : if you guys happen to read this, W, C, N, S and A. tak, aku tak marah korang. i shall talk to you guys more often next time. insyaAllah.

hey UiTM! i'm back!

2011-11-20T18:00:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum everyone!
finally, finally, my two weeks of holiday is over. :(
how sad.
n i'm here, in UiTM SHAH ALAM! yeay! -___-"
but, i'm doing good. i don't study that much though during my holiday. i really enjoyed it, that i only started to focus on studying only a few days before the class starts. hahah.
*not a good example,right? sila jangan ikut.

so, classes are almost started.
i need motivation.
and a new me perhaps?
it doesn't hurt to try, right?

positive thinking ,people!

a new me? it doesn't mean i'm totally different.
maybe people will still feel, "alah, sama je". yup, memang. perubahan more to dalaman rather than luaran kali ini.
insyaAllah, we'll gonna make this together, huh?
take care,people!
wassalam. :)

extra,

found this while tumblr-ing. anatomy of cupcake, cute isn't it? :)

p/s : all pictures are taken from tumblr. :)

#200 - A Call That Cost Me RM9.81

2011-11-17T14:22:00.001+08:00

Salamualyk!
haha. bukan nak bangga, kata aku kaya or anything.
tapi, aku jakun! yup,jakun!
hahahah. tak pernah aku buat call semahal ni. (okay,mungkin pernah. tapi aku tak perasan. =.=")
walaupun mahal, there's no regret. betul. tak tipu!
"no regret, just love." haha. :)

see, i'm not kidding. RM 9.81. :)

now, i realised, kenapa couple selalu top up. banyak makan duit.

lagi2 bila telco berlainan kan?
sampai sanggup guna 2 nombor kan?

so,siapa gerangan yang bertuah ini?
it's Fatin Izzati Mohmed Azmi! aka TenTen!
former classmate masa kat tgb. tapi dia selalu duduk jauh daripada saya. kan tenten kan? :)
mula2 nak call tanya khabar, tengok dia down semacam kat twitter. lagipun tenten ni sakit telinga.
lepas dah cerita lama-lama tu, naiklah cerita2 baru.
normal lah,perempuan. :)
seriuosly,we talked a lot!
especially about our classmates.
those who're here in Malaysia, and those who had further their studies oversea.
senang cakap semua 25 crew 18 la! :D

some of the conversation;
(mungkin tak sama,tapi jalan ceritanya sama.*wink*)

"hurm, Azizi n Nell dah selamat dah fly."
"a'ah. eh, classmate kita selain Rafieque tak ada lagi kat KMB n KMS?"
"hahaha. a'ahlah. tak ada. classmate kita berlambak kat Malaysia je!"
LOL. bukan kitorang taknak fly kan? kitorang support local uni je.
kalau bukan kitorang yang belajar kat situ,siapa lagi kan? hahah. ;)

"oh, Nell buat twinning, Esah nanti pun twinning."
"kau, radin? twinning ke full? "
" owh. aku twinning."
" bila fly"
" tahun depan lah. fly sungai buloh."
and we both burst out laughing. dah tak ada sedih2 dah. hahha. :')
" kenapa kau tak nak fly eh?"
bukan aku taknak tenten, hurm, bacalah ni, i wrote about it here. (click me!)

hahahaah. it was so much fun! i wish i can do this more often. catching up stories with my friends.
tapi,budgetnye tiada. sobs. $.$
it was so nice talking to you, tenten. :)
hopefully, you'll be just fine in UNIMAP.
sila score,okay?nak dapat tajaan JPA. aku doakan kau banyak2!
*nanti dah dapat,boleh belanja aku kan? ;)
alah, kalau ada problem, amir kan ada kat sana. classmate kita juga. :')

yang row kedua, kanan sekali, itulah tenten. ;)

yang depan bersongkok itulah saya. hehe.

i miss all of them. :'(

lagi 8 tahun reunion kita. kat langkawi tau! :)

so, that's it, people.
cuti pun dah nak habis. :'(
PT pun dah nak dekatkan?
pressure cam tak sabar2 nak attack kita,kan?
fa sabrun jameel, kan?
so, take care! wassalam.

p/s : if u guys noticed, i'm not that active fb-ing or twitter-ing anymore. i'm still there actually. i'm just trying to minimize spending my time on that both website. u can always find me here. kalau ada phone number,lagi senang nak cari, kan? ;)

kami hebat!

2011-11-13T03:11:00.001+08:00

salamualayk.
sila baca dari bawah ke atas, kanan ke kiri.
senang cakap, baca ikut masa la. hahah.

this is what happened when you enter medical school.
sampai status skype pun nak di'medical'kan kan? hahaha.
just kidding.
saja nak bajet hebat sesama sendiri kan?
padahal... (sila jawab sendiri)
Amal, sila simpan kenangan kita ni. hahaha. ;)

anyway, all the best and goodluck to my sister,
Radin Nurulnadiah, whose currently in her Fourth Year of medical school.
She's going to have her finals next week, starting from 14/11.
all the best, Na! lepas habis exam, boleh fikir nak balik Malaysia dah! hahaha. :)
n yeah, janji nak belanja kenny rogers kan? hahah.
korang, doakan juga ya, "this year is a critical year", katanya.
insyaAllah, you can do it! :)

take care people. saya nak sambung titas. :)
wassalam!

p/s : lepas balik Malaysia, boleh la ajar kita pula kan? heheh.

11/11/11 - meeting with the dentist.

2011-11-11T17:39:00.001+08:00

salamualayk!
11/11/11 - cantik kan tarikh ni? Subhanallah. :)
alhamdulillah juga kita diberi peluang untuk bernafas lagi pada tarikh yang hanya akan berulang setiap 100 tahun saja ni. :)
kat twitter, orang sibuk dengan hashtag #Wish111111
ada yang marah. sebab itu semua bertentangan dengan Islam. kita sepatutnya minta pada Allah.
in my personal opinion, wish, okay je? sebab pada aku, wish, samalah macam azam.
bukan kita minta pada benda lain. kita just berazam. macam;
"i wish to become a good doctor"
bukan lah kita minta pada benda lain. kita just berazam nak jadi doktor yang baik insyaAllah. :)

okay, bukan ini yang aku nak cerita sebenarnya.
hari ni 11/11/11 - tarikh appointment dentist aku.
nama dentist aku - Dr. Azman Bin Ahmad Naspu
memang dia dah harap maklum, aku ambil course medic.
pernah juga dia cuba meracuni (ceh, meracuni, u. haha. ) fikiran ni, ambil dentistry macam dia.
siap buat deal lagi, kasi kerja kat klinik dia nanti. haha.
tapi, apakan daya? scholar aku + memang daripada kecil nak jadi doktor (bukan doktor gigi of course).
so, terpaksalah tolak offer dia. :)

so, biasalah mula-mula aku memang akan diam.
biasa dia akan start perbualan.

" Medic UiTM pakai sistem CGPA ke? "
" Tak. " - simple je jawapan aku, mood nak cakap kurang hari ni.
" a'ah. memanglah tak boleh guna CGPA kan? kalau nanti grad doctor cukup2 pointer 3.0, mana boleh. "
...........
lepas tu bila macam dah lama tu dia pun mula cerita. cerita itu dan ini.
memang best bercerita dengan orang yang dalam bidang yang lebih kurang sama, yang macam dah biasa dengan kita. (okay, apahal ayat ni cam serabut? LOL)
here are the few quotes yang aku suka n aku ingat. nak cerita semua? memang panjang lah kan?

'hidup kat dunia ni takde pressure, tak best la. hidup nak senang je, mana boleh.'

'5 tahun awak belajar ni, awak hafal je, nak faham memang susah. nama pun medic.'

'after 5 years, then you'll realise, owh patutlah doctor tu ajar macam tu, patutla dia cakap macam ni.'

'doctor dulu lagilah, tak minat anatomy, buat macam mana pun tak minat. tapi nak buat macam mana kan?'

'masa viva, kena soalan sensory receptor. memang matilah. salah jawab, 5 prof kat depan duk gelak2. mmg malu'

serius, dia cerita memang panjang! excited mungkin? hahah.
sampai dah habis treatment pun tak habis cerita lagi. hahha.
itu tak cerita dia tidur dengan tulang2 lagi. aku pun fun je dengar experience orang. :)

dalam kepala, 'alang nama haemophillus ducreyi dengan bordetella pertussis pun susah nak melekat kat kepala, boleh ke aku berjaya macam dia?'
i did tell him, microbiology is tough.
his response : "owh, dah belajar microbiology?kira dah belajar la first line defense, humoral semua tu? kan 'menarik'? hahaha. nak buat macam mana kan. tu benda paling penting! tak hafal, tak grad!"
okay, makin gelabah la aku. tapi dia tak mention pun psal nama-nama bacteria? tak penting kot?
tapi, at least, aku kena tahu kan?
owh, bacteria, please let your name stick firmly in my mind, please. dahlah nama korang pelik2. :/

bila hari jumpa dentist, memang petangnya baru terasa kesakitannya.
sekarang dah terasa. :(
btw, thanks a lot doctor for your words! next appointment, kita borak2 lagi, okay! hehe.

so that's it, people. :)
saja nak share. baru perasan memang ramai pendorong aku kat sekeliling ni.
alhamdulillah. n inshaAllah, i won't give up. :)
wassalam!

p/s : mula2 plan nak tukar merah, saja, first colour masa baru pakai dulu + bosan lah hijau je, tapi nampaknya. tak berjaya. :(

p/ss : nampaknya, bulan depan akan balik ke johor dua kali! ho yeah! sila jealous. :D

alhamdulillah. :)

2011-11-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

:)

extra;

sama-sama amalkan,jom! :)

p/s : baru tahu dua sahabat baik yang dahulunya gaduh kini dah berbaik semula. alhamdulillah. :) syabas korang!

Wanna know them?

2011-11-09T13:17:00.000+08:00

assalamualaik.

so far, how was your holiday, huh?
mine was great! watching movies, makan. makan n makan.
hahah. bila kat rumah jelah kita boleh pulun makan apa saja kan?
hahah. kidding.

so,siapa 'them'?
my study group. since i was bored. so i thought introducing all of them to you guys won't hurt kan?
so, as i've mention before, my study group consist of me myself, S, D, H, A and E.
so who are they?

*drum rolllsssss*
taraaaaaa!

inilah S and D

S stand for Suhaida. kitorang panggil Sue je.

D stand for Dila or full name dia, Adila. sometimes,we call her nenek. nenek bergaya kot! kidding Dila. :P

diorang dua ni roomate aku masa sem 1 asasi lagi! pandai2 sokmo ni.

so,siapa lagi tiga?

*drumrolls again*

taraaaaa!

sorry, dapat ambil gambar belakang diorang je. hahah.

ala,kalau geng MBBS mesti kenal kot diorang ni.

budak2 famous ni.

so, A for Amri.

E, for Eddy.

H for Haziq Ali.

don't know what to say about them.

kawan2 baru pun. still x biasa nak be'huha-huha' lagi.

so,that it!
my study group!
so, anyone interested to know any one of them?
*hahah, rasa seperti menjual kawan. -___-"
just leave me a comment. nak tanya apa2? hurm. sila2.

wassalam!

extra;

*tengah sibuk2 orang ramai tunggu kupon*

"radin! ambil la gambar aku!"

"kau sorang?" -__-"

"ah, yelaa!"

"errrr?" -____-"

hah, ambilla gambar ni, aku dah famouskan kat sini.

*as if kau baca je kan? hahah.

btw, people, ni la Eddy.

p/s : entry dibuat kerana bosan dan sambil2 tu terjumpa gambar-gambar ni dalam phone.

p/ss: dengar2 geng study group ramai down dengan result PT? chill okay, baru first PT. ada banyak lagi lepas ni. nanti naik cuti, kita gather, tengok apa yang kita boleh tolong sesama sendiri okay?

p/sss : anyway,congrats geng MBBS untuk result2 PT korang yang gempak.yang tak gempak tu, takpe, 2nd PT kita bangkit!

The Result is Out! O.O

2011-11-04T17:41:00.001+08:00

salamualaik everyone.

"aku nak buat announcement pasal PT" - ketua batch.
....then the lecturer came in.
okay, takpe2. *padahal tangan dah terketaq abih dah. takut salah isi student id masa exam dulu.
lecture Fetal Membrane n Placenta pun macam tak boleh fokus. confident dengan hanya record suara lecturer tu. dan tulis sikit2.

so, once the lecturer finished, imran quickly grabbed the mic.
"kelas titas blaa.. blaaa.... group bel blaa... blaaa... blaaaa... group lab blaaa..blaaa..blaaa..
pasal PT, result dah keluar, tampal kat pantry."

i don't know what other people reactions are. but mine was like,
'takpe, lepak dulu. ramai sangat orang ni.' so, i sat there.
sambil2 tu boleh usha ketua batch sibuk2 cakap dengan orang2 kat bawah tu.
*aih, teringat time dia jadi pres badar kat tgb dulu. :3
tengok2 orang lain excited nak tengok result + muka2 excited nak balik kampung masing2.
memang seronok memerhati orang. :)

"jom, aku nak balik."
i let her lead the way.
"weh, aku cuak sangat. kita jalan slow2,okay? weh, rasa macam taknak ambil result. :("
*jumpa kiki along the way, smiling broadly*
"kau dah tengok result ke, kiki?"
"belum. ramai gila kot."
okay,memang ramai gila. dari jauh dah nampak orang berkumpul depan notice board tu.

'jalan slow2' masih diteruskan, dengan hati yang penuh debaran. sampailah berhampiran dengan notice board tu.
"weh, aku nampak satu kotak tu dia warna lain. ntah2 aku?"
-hati semakin kuat kata aku salah tulis student id. macam2 persoalan berlegar dalam kepala-
aku cuba fokuskan mata aku, 2011*4****
'4? student id aku takde no 4 kan?' getus hati ku.
bila orang2 depan mula beredar, aku terus fokuskan mata ke satu kotak yang memang lain sangat daripada yang lain. 2011*4**** .
'okay. confirm bukan aku punya.' - lega seketika pada waktu itu.

cari punya cari, okay jumpa.
"okay dah jumpa!"- macam nak announce kat semua orang aku dah jumpa aku punya. -__-" *sangat spontaneous. sorry, can't help it.
my friend already left.

"Radin,dapat apa?"
"B. weh, alhamdulillah, AKU TAK TERSALAH TULIS STUDENT ID!" dengan muka gembira gila.
"okaylah, B"
"kau?" muka masih gembira gila.
"aku fail, kot!" terus pergi tinggalkan aku. T.T
aku tak bersalah kot, aku just gembira gila sebab aku tak salah tulis student id. bukan aku gembira aku dapat kalahkan kau ke apa,weh. :(
nasib baik, bila dah kat kolej kau okay. ingat kau marah aku. :(

*n if you happen to read this, jangan sedih okay. ni baru first PT. ada banyak lagi PT lepas ni.
lagipun ingat tak masa asasi dulu, benda macam ni pernah jadi masa Fizik dulu, ingat tak?
kau mula2 markah rendah2, last2 kau yang kalahkan aku. jangan risau sangat,okay?
insyaAllah, kalau kita dah usaha, Allah akan bantu kita. :)

so, people. i scored B for my first PT!
okaylah kan? Dr. Nawar kan cakap, excellent student biasanya score biasa2 je kan?
*ceh, padahal nak menyedapkan hati.
Alhamdulillah, dilema salah tulis student id ni dah berakhir.
dah menghantui aku lebih 2 minggu kot.
alhamdulillah.alhamdulillah.alhamdulillah.

baru rasa senang hati nak balik rumah. :)
Selamat bercuti geng MBBS!
berehatlah secukupnya 2 minggu tu,okay? :)
see you guys in two weeks time!
Selamat Hari Raya! :)

p/s : amboi, ada orang nak ajak kita tengok theater? bukan awak kena jaga SPM ke? hahah.

p/ss : congrats la orang tu dapat distinction untuk psych punya assignment. nak tengok sikit bila orang dah Year 4 nanti k. dah cop dulu, tau. jangan kasi orang lain! buku pharmaco jangan lupa! lab coats, sila claim bila dah sampai malaysia. saya belanja.

p/sss : ada orang tu bakal jadi warga uitm jugalah. ikut saya dengan ayah la tu. duduk puncak perdana elok2. jangan nak mengada-ngada datang shah alam selalu,okay. duduk je diam2 kat puncak perdana tu. hahaha.

Self-reflection

2011-11-04T08:10:00.003+08:00

Jika kamu kafir, maka sesungguhnya Allah tidak memerlukan (iman) mu dan Dia tidak meridai kekafiran bagi hamba-Nya; dan jika kamu bersyukur, niscaya Dia meridai bagimu kesyukuranmu itu; dan seorang yang berdosa tidak akan memikul dosa orang lain. Kemudian kepada Tuhanmulah kembalimu lalu Dia memberitakan kepadamu apa yang telah kamu kerjakan. Sesungguhnya Dia Maha Mengetahui apa yang tersimpan dalam (dada) mu.

(Az-Zumar :7)

siapalah kitakan?
kalau kita megkafirkan diri pun,
dia takkan merugikan Allah, pencipta kita.
kita hanya merugikan diri sendiri je.

renung-renungkan,wahai sahabat.
ayat ni memang buat aku fikir panjang semalam.
reflect balik selama 19 tahun aku hidup di dunia ni. apa yang pernah terlintas dia hati?
apa yang aku buat yang boleh mengundang kekafiran?
memang banyak kesalahan aku, selaku manusia jahil ni.
kemalasan apatah lagi, kan?
lalai dan alpa lagi?
astaghfirullah. astaghfirullah. astaghfirullah.

'ya Allah, janganlah engkau hilangkan pergantungan aku, keluargaku dan para sahabatku kepadamu. engkau peliharalah pemikiran dan hati2 kami, ya Rahman, ya Rahim. aminnn.'

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"Radin, kenapa satu dua hari ni Radin tiba-tiba diam? Sebab #%$^* eh? alaalala."
"aa? mana ada. adalah, konflik dalaman sikit." - sambil senyum, menyenangkan hati si tukang tanya.
"Cuba cerita. ceritalah"
"aa? taknak la cerita."
"takpe, kita follow twitter Radin. haha"
- thanks for noticing it and thanks for your concern, friend. :)
biasalah,dalam hidup ni akan tiba masanya, kita akan rasa kita ada masalah, yang kadang kita tak boleh nak describe pun apa masalah tu.
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p/s : alhamdulillah, pagi ni indahnya lain macam. wonderwhy?
p/ss : batu pahat, nantikan kepulanganku~ haha. ;)

smile. laugh. :)

2011-10-31T22:05:00.000+08:00

salamualaik everyone!

"no wonder, radin selalu kalau gelak sampai keluar2 air mata."
hahaha. yep. that's me! once i laughed. it's hard for me to stop. especially masa ECE tadi.
sorry, H****. cannot tahan already. -___-"
i know, it's not good. but,sometimes it really helps to relieve my stress.
takdelah sampai kena vasovagal syncope kan? hahaha. :P *pengaruh PBL

n yeah,it's NINO's birthday last sunday!
memang makan! makan! makan! je dua hari ni. hoho.
2 malam berturut2 makan kek! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINO! *nino =nini shahirah. :)

"radin, **** nyanyi happy birthday kat nini malam tadi. Nini rasa kena cerita kat radin ni!"
hahah. untunglah. :)

n yeah,did i mention we won the pertandingan pantun last Sunday?
2nd place to be exact! nah, i didn't join. *yela,orang BM A- mana la pandai benda2 macam ni. :(
i only came to the event to support them.
"Hang Lekir, Hang Lekiu,
Delima Tiga, We love you!"
hahah. congrats korang! :)

"Radin, result keluar hari ni!"
=.=" err? don't spoil the mood please?
orang lain semua risau result dapat A+ ke A ke A*.
tapi aku? aku risau betul ke tak student id isi kat borang omr tu?
dah dua kali dah salah isi student id kot. first, masa kesatria, second isi borang kolej. :(
don't let this PT thing be the third time. nauzubillah.

n yep, if u meet me along this week, memang muka senyum je memanjang!
i just can't wait to get back to batu pahat!
the mood is really great for this week, bagi je kerja apa2, i'll finish on time!*haha,berlagak gila. :P

so, that's it people!
sebenarnya tengah tensi buat homework bel.
hope to see you guys soon!
wassalam. :)

anatomy of thought

2011-10-30T10:32:00.000+08:00

salamualaik everyone!
tajuk takde kaitan pun. saja. selalu sangat dengar bila ada announcement daripada president mesta kita.
haha. :)

alhamdulillah, i feel super great this week!
wonder why?
maybe sebab minggu ni it'sall about DNA n embryology kot?
eventhough the terms are quite confusing, tapi fun belajar.
n it really shows 'kebesaran' Allah.

how the DNA was packed into a chromosome? sangat2 lah cool. :)
n i never knew that originally the embryo is only a flat disc.
then there'll be folding of the head,and the tail. there'll also be lateral folding. then, it'll become a fetus.
Subhanallah!
*rasanya memang kena kasi orang2 yang buang bayi belajar embryology. biar dia amaze sikit. tak nak dah buang2 bayi.

its seems that i ALMOST get the rhythm on how to divide my time properly.
able to complete the pre-reading, post reading n notes.
but, still i want my movie night back!
i get one during asasi, but not now. there's no movie night this time. :(
lagi2 bila bilik tv dah pulih. lagilah desakan semakin kuat!
need to figure out how can i get one.

this week,the PBL is great.
no study group. masing2 busy. except me.
kilat sabung menyabung almost every evening.
segala urusan kolej settle.
air milo tumpah dalam bag. semua kertas ada kesan warna coklat. :(

n yeah,kitorang dapat DNA necklace!
DNA kitorang la. cool gila!
*walaupun tak se'cool' orang tu. still, i'm a human. my DNA is inside there.

see the whitish thing? that's my DNA. :)

rasanya minggu ni banyak :) banding dengan :(.

alhamdulillah. hihi.

so, that's it,people!

tak sabar nak balik rumah. :)

wassalam!

"Radin, kau ni mengadap buku je ke memanjang? tak join night run n IVG? pantun pun?"

TAK.

Student ID

2011-10-25T20:14:00.000+08:00

assalamualaik kawan2.
kenapa dengan student id?

yep. student id.
aku takut kalau aku tersilap tulis student id masa PT hari tu.
kalau aku salah tulis,macam mana eh?
persoalan ni selalu bermain dalam kepala aku setiap kali orang minta student id aku.
especially tadi, masa test bel.

student id betul ; 2011287308

student id yang selalu confius ; 2011280378

nampak tak? jauh gila kan?
and the worst thing is, kenapa dia takminta i/c???
boleh back up kalau salah tulis student id. *sigh*

kalau betul aku salah tulis, macam mana eh? :'(
takkan aku tak dapat markah apa2 untuk first PT? :'(

korang doa-doakan aku tak salah tulis, okay?
seriously aku pun tak ingat aku tulis yang mana satu, since kepala dah berserabut masa tu.
ya Allah,tolonglah hamba mu ini. :'(

p/s : semua ni salah U la ni, ada pula stock kad habis? dah lama kot pergi ambil gambar. TT.TT
dulu ambil gambar,jalan sana,jalan sini. tup2,kad matrik siap. sekarang lambat sangat ni. :'(

start smart.live your life right.

2011-10-23T23:31:00.003+08:00

" creativity starts when you believe."

" believe in your dreams! "

" no shortcuts, no easy way "

" I am a dreamer and I believe in my dream and I achieved my dream."

" i always remember the average student,not the top student. mostly, they score B, sometimes A and sometimes C."

yeah, those quotes i got from this one talk called, "The Secret of Medical School Success".
the talk was given by Dr Muhammad Nawar Ariffin.
he was the coolest doctor i've ever found. sempoiii saja. :)
sepatutnya Dr.Muhaya. but Dr.Nawar ni pun cool juga, top 10 astronaut kot!
besides,he's an orthopaedic at Tropical Medical Center.

i admire you, Dr. Nawar. but, i strongly believe i can't be like you.
i love to hear your story, but yeah, deep inside i know, i can't do what you've done.
mungkin orang anggap aku mengalah. but, hey, i know my limit.
i'm also a dreamer. n i did a lot of thinking. but still, i know i won't be like you.
it's true, we never know our future.
n yeah, if i succeed, maybe the approach to the success will be totally different from yours, dr nawar.
i'm not that kind that will raise my hand and give my opinion on something.
i'm not a good communicator like you.
i don't like being among lecturers.
i don't like to read all those thick text books. even for exams.

hurrmmm, maybe, i should do a self reflection and make an improvement, kan?
we'll see. i need to have a plan.

However, i was really inspired just now!
thanks Dr.Nawar. a bunch of thanks to SMF too! :D

okay here's the Quick Update;

Imam Muda Ashraf
i got to meet Imam Muda Ashraf last Friday.
and he talks about mahasiswa.
he's sweet and a cool. n yeah. a full respect to you, imam muda ashraf! :)
walaupun lambat, but yeah, still bermanfaat.
hope to have a second session with you.
tak sia-sia meredah hujan. :)

i've been oncall last saturday.
oncall? haha. bajet je. it's actually explorace with the 2nd year.
i'm in Group 3. :)
"gentar. gentar.gentar.tak gentar.tak gentar.
takut. takut. takut. tak takut. tak takut.
cuak. cuak. cuak.tak cuak. tak cuak.
Group 3, pasti menang!"
we didn't win. haha. tapi okaylah.dapat penghargaan juga.
and it was fun. :)

the PT (Progress Test).
kalau taknak cerita boleh tak?
if he did badly in pharmaco, i did badly for anatomy, physiology and parasitology.
hurm, nak lawan?
tapi malas nak layan sangat. since benda pun dah berlaku.
i admit, i didn't really focus on anatomy. my bad. i did a last minute reading for physiology.
and i don't bother to hafal all those parasites name.
memang padan muka la kan?
sure, this PT did give me a 'tamparan hebat' so that i stop playing n stay focus.
told you, i'm just a normal student, tak ada nya 'budak fast track kan? mesti hebat.' tak adalah.
maybe tu orang lain. but not me.

English Test
i'm going to have bel test this tuesday!
i still need to improve my skill on finding the main idea of the given passage.
oh,lamanya tak test english! except MUET la.
doa-doakan okay? :)

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so, that's it people!
a very hectic week.but yeah. bermanfaat.
take care!
wassalam. :)

p/s : when Dr.Nawar kept saying about being a dreamer. the song 'imagine', sang by glee kept playing in my head. 'you may say i'm a dreamer, but i'm not the only one.' Gleek tegar ni! haha. :)

p/ss : rabu cuti deepavali.diorang ajak jogging then sarapan seksyen 7. jommmmm!

p/sss : 'bila duit elaun kita dah masuk, jom makan subway. boleh singgah tutti frutti sekali' - cool gila! i'm in! tapi ada risotto tak? mengidam risotto sofea. :/

p/ssss : ibu, if u happened to read this post, i'll give u a call tomorrow morning, okay? tapi tak boleh nak nyanyi lagu 'we did it' tu,cause i did badly for my PT. sorry. :(

Study Group aka Kumpulan Belajar

2011-10-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

assalamualaik everyone!
korang pernah dengar tak, orang selalu cakap;
"buatlah study group, percayalah, ia akan banyak membantu. lagi2 bila belajar medic ni, kan banyak benda nak cover?"

to be honest, i don't believe in this. entry ni (clickme!) pun dah menunjukkan sejak asasi aku tak percaya study group.

so last week,
i was sitting alone at this one table in ptar.
then, come H, wanted to sit together. okay, duduklah. ptar hak awam.
then, a few minutes later, E came, wanted to sit together too. hurm, duduklah.
at first i felt very awkward,with all people staring at me,
dengan pandangan like, 'biar betul radin duduk dengan diorang?'
eeerrrr? aku pun buat muka tak faham.
memang awkward gila sebab itu first time aku duduk semeja dengan bukan geng fast track kot? =.=
bukan berlagak apa. the truth is, diorang yang datang duduk dengan aku, okay kawan2?

then tengah2 belajar, tiba2,
E - "Eh, jom buat study group. jealousla tengok orang lain ada study group."
Me- "Ah,buatlah. ni, buat dengan H ni"
H - "Betul2. Rasa seronok je tengok diorang bincang2, argue2."
E - "Jom, jom H. Eh, radin kau join la sekali?"
err, aku nak cakap NO memang susah. dari dulu,kot. lagi2 diorang ni kawan baru.
makin buat aku rasa bersalah. jadinya;
Me - "hurm, okaylah.aku join"
E - "nak ajak siapa lagi. radin ajaklah geng2 kau."
bla. bla. bla.

at the end, tertubuh la satu study group baru yang ada 6 orang ahli.
ada radin, S, D, E, H n A. nak nama exact? nanti2lah.
we did try to have one session last saturday. it turns out well. in fact, so well. sampai balik tu, aku teruskan study sampai tak sedar dah pukul 6.45 and i haven't had my dinner.

so, geng study group. thanks a lot!
insyaAllah, kita boleh score untuk PT nanti.
geng MBBS pun. score PT molek, okay!
wassalam.

p/s : sebenarnya tadikan tiba2 terlintas kat fikiran aku nak resign daripada study group tu. there's no exact reason. it just that, it feels so wrong. in fact, before study group tu aku rasa lain sangat. susah nak describe. i just ignored that feeling during that session. saja bagi peluang. tiba2 tadi terfikir balik. kenapa? aku pun tak tahu.
maybe esok lusa, akan okay balik kot feeling ni, insyaAllah.

p/ss : PT(Progress Test) jumaat ni,doa-doakanlah eh. :)

2011-10-13T07:26:00.000+08:00

AL-FATIHAH

Haji Abdul Samad Bin Mahmud

i will always miss you, atuk ayah.

Semoga roh atuk ayah dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 beriman.

memang sedih. sangat sedih.

alang duduk shah alam pun tak sempat nak balik nak tengok jasad atuk buat kali terakhir.

tapi takapa kan? kita dah jumpa sabtu lepas kan?

atuk, jangan risau. kitorang akan selalu ingat atuk.

kirim salam dua2 atuk mak untuk fathiah. :')

Geng MBBS.

2011-10-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

assalamualaik everyone!
sound cheerful enough?
mestilah gembira! cause i'm on my way to batu pahat! :D
yes way, i'm sitting on the bus typing a new post. untunglaaahhh. haha.

this week had been hectic as always.
but one good news is that,
MEJA DAH SAMPAI!
n ampai dalam bilik yang pelik.
but without the chair. -_________-"

n yeah,if you guys notice, i've added this one column in my blog list;

yeay! GENG MBBS!
kalau ada yang tak termasuk list, do inform me, okay?
Selamat berkenalan everyone!
sorry if aku selalu annoy korang sebab selalu jerit 'faham!'setiap kali lecturer tanya 'faham tak?'
dia terkeluar automatik. -_______-"

wassalam! n take care people! :)

p/s : entry ditulis pada jumaat malam, tapi di'publish' pada sabtu malam. mood sekarang; agak stress sebab nak kena balik shah alam esok. :(

p/ss : geng assabiah. aku tak kisah korang nak panggil kitorang assabiah ke apa. aku chill je. tapi tak semua orang macam aku dan boleh terima ejekan korang. so,pandai-pandailah menjaga hati orang okay, progress test pun dah nak dekat,kan? fikir-fikirkanlah, okay?

Aku dan Stress

2011-09-30T20:58:00.001+08:00

khusyuk aku membelek handout DSL di salah sebuah meja PTAR. term2 yang digunakan memang banyak yang asing bagi beginners seperti aku.
meja berempat duduk berdua sahaja, bersama Z, salah seorang sahabat yang tidak asing lagi, rakan sepermainan masa asasi dulu.
PTAR memang penuh tatkala masa senggang sebegini.
masing2 sibuk menyiapkan lab report masing2 bersama ahli2 kumpulan masing2.
aku pula menggigihkan diri membaca handout DSL Microbiology yang akan dibincangkan pukul 4 petang nanti.

"Radin, kau nampak stress la."
tegur S, seorang lagi kawan sepermainan masa asasi dulu, terus duduk di kerusi betul2 berhadapan dengan tempat duduk aku.

"Mana ada." sambil berusaha keras untuk senyum, menyembunyikan stress yang memang ada dalam diri ni.

S mula memerhati ekspresi muka aku.
"Apa?.." tegurku. mula rasa kurang senang bila diperlihat sebegitu rupa.
"isshh. kesian lah aku tengok kau, Radin."
"Apa yang kau kesian ni? Aku okay jelah."
"Kau nampak stress la Radin. kesian aku tengok kamu."
"Mana ada laaaa. hahahaa. " aku cuba ketawa, menidakkan 'statement' si S ni.

S masih memerhatikan tindak tanduk aku yang memang sedang berusaha keras untuk memahami intipati handout tersebut.
"Apa lagi ni ,S?"
"Issshhh, betul la. kesian sangat. aku sedih tengok kau macam ni. kau sahabat aku. aku rasa tak best tengok kau macam ni."
"hei, aku okay la. normal la. penat2 sikit bila belajar ni. lagi pun banyak benda nak kena belajar kan?"
"memang banyak. tapi memang kau nampak stress la Radin. "
"S, Radin ni kan memang independent." sampuk Z yang entah mana, masuk cerita lain.
"memang obviouslah Radin,kau stress. kau selalu datang kelas macam ni kan? *sambil buat gaya bawa bag* lepas tu, kau akan tengok sekeliling lecture hall, baru kau duduk. betulkan?" sambung S, bersungguh-sungguh meniru gaya aku sambil ketawa dengan kuatnya.
"hahah. betul la. kau usha aku ehhh? hahah." saja buat cool, padahal diri sendiri pun baru sedar habit ni lepas S bagitahu.
"pagi-pagi, aku dah nampak kau stress. kau study hard sangat ni."
"mana ada. dah memang banyak benda nak kena belajar." :(
"cuba tengok aku, tak stress pun. kau belajar banyak sangat."
"mana ada S, kalau nak banding dengan yang lain2, akulah yang paling relax. diorang lagi study hard daripada aku kot."
"issshhh. kesian lah kau, radin.mesti kau stress kan tengok diorang2 study. jomlah pindah kolej kitorang. mesti kau tak stress dan selalu ketawa je nanti."
"hahha. kalau boleh, memang aku dah pindah, kot." saja mengiyakan kata2 S.
bla... bla.. bla..

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salamualaik,people!
benda atas ni berlaku dalam minggu ni juga.
setiap pagi aku cuba menggembirakan hati, biar aku boleh fokus bila lecture.
sampai kadang aku sedar, aku membuat orang lain rasa annoyed. haha. sorry.
tapi, memang terserlah sangat ke ke'stress'an di muka ni? dah cuba cover sehabis baik dah.

seriously, i'm still struggling nak cope dengan hectic life ni. :(
ya Allah,berilah kekuatan pada hamba mu ini ya Allah. :'(

p/s : siapa S? haha. thanks S. i'm lucky to have a friend yang selalu happy go lucky macam kau. :)

p/ss : ceh, wakil batch untuk choir lagu raya. :)

ARIF

2011-09-28T12:12:00.002+08:00

ARIF."Enganging Hearts, Inspiring Minds"

ececeh.apa ARIF ni?

"ARIF merupakan sebuah persatuan rakyat Malaysia beragama Islam di Perancis berobjektifkan pembinaan modal insan dan memacu rakyat malaysia kearah keperibadian yang tinggi seiring dengan aspirasi negara, Wawasan 2020."

that is what stated on that ARIF website. don't ask me why ARIF?. i don't know.

apa kena mengena?
takde kena mengena pun. kawan suruh promote and share. yeah, aku promote.

me : kenapa aku kena share? kau jelah share.
dia : haha..saje je.. kat blog kau ke.. aku dh share dah.. :)

hurm. yelah2. ke sebab ni,weh?

hahahaha.. pandai juga kau berlakon,eh. :))

anyway guys, pergilah lawat website budak2 france yang jauh di perantauan tu.
mana tahu boleh mengubat rindu kat kawan2 korang yang kat sana tu?
so,click la link kat bawah ni!

http://arif-france.org/v1/

have fun,people!
wassalam!

notebook.

2011-09-25T10:05:00.000+08:00

we'll go through this 5 years of hardship together, yeah notebook.

insyaAllah.

p/s : ada open house hari ni. alhamdulillah, jimat duit for lunch. and dinner perhaps?

few words from the doctors. and bff.

2011-09-24T17:05:00.002+08:00

"So what type of person are you, Radin? math people or reading people?"

"i'm a math people."

"so, you must be good in mathematics right? and physics i presume? "

" yeah. n i'm quite worried about that. :( i'm not the reading type. medic need a person who really loves to read, right? "

" owh, don't worry, radin. for your info, people who loves mathematics and physics did score well in the exam. some of them even became the best student. they don't simply read things. they'll try to understand the thing and not just read and memorize everything. they even try to make formula or even try to understand the concept on the things they learn. that's the thing! you need to understand the thing you learn, don't just simply read and memorize."

basically, these are the conversation i had with my mentor last Wednesday.
of course there were other things, but yeah, this one yang 'paling melekat' !
i'm quite down for this 2nd week. :(
don't have the spirit to learn. too many prssures. :(

thanks a lot Dr. Effat Omar, my mentor! a pathologist.
'untunglaaaahhhh dapat mentor pathologist.' a'ah. memang untung! haha. :)
'untunglaaaaahhhh dapat mentor malaysian.' a'ah. memang sangat untung! :P
alhamdulillah, is all i can say. :)

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" just close your eyes and imagine you are in the fifth year now. time flies very fast. you do realise that, don't you? "

- Prof. Bahar, lecturer for parasitology

yeah, i can do that in your subject, Prof Bahar.
but biochemistry? naaahhhhh. :(
i really need to struggle for biochemistry.
kadang2 rasa macam tak dapat apa je bila keluar lecture biochemistry. :(

"haha... dpt sumething.. mgkn bagi ko x cukup kot.. ehehehe" - bff.
maybe? :(

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seriously, i'm having problem with biochemistry. owh, biochem, why can't you be a little bit more nicer to us? :(

"belajar je.. anggap tmbh general knowledge" - bff.
untunglah bff ni seorang yang pandai, kan? :(
insyaAllah, i'll try, okay?

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SubhanAllah, Allahuakbar.
memang tersangat berat cabaran yang engkau kurniakan kepada hambamu ini, ya Rabb.
:(
tapi memang sesungguhnya Engkau mengetahui aku mampu untuk menanggung semua ini, bukan?
janganlah Engkau hilangkan pergantungan kami kepadamu, Ya Allah. :'(

take care, people!
wassalam.

p/s : that bff term sounds fun, katanya. hurm, yelah. thanks a lot btw. :)

p/ss : thanks QueQue belanja duit minyak bawa raya rumah Esah. n yeah thank Esah belanja breakfast + lunch. n yeah, haii kawan baru, Saifudin eh?(tak ingat) =.="

p/sss : surprisingly, kawad kesatria tu fun rupanya. maybe sebab Cikgu Zul yang sempoi kot? :)

Mentor Mentee

2011-09-19T08:49:00.001+08:00

salamualaik everyone!
so, how was your day?
it's just the starting of the week, don't lose the spirit, okay!
haha. :D

mentor mentee? what is that?
from my point of view, the mentor mentee here is very different from what we used to have. the mentor mentee programme here, make the lecturers as the mentors. sort of homeroom thing while i was in the mrsm.
well, basically, the mentor will monitor your performance, give you guidance, being someone to talk to if you have problem, etc. kiranya macam kita anggap je mentor kita sebagai motherly/fatherly friend. tell them anything.

so, do you have groupmates for this mentor mentee thing?
yep, i do! so far, the best groupmates i've ever had. in mbbs la. :P i enjoyed having them in my groups.
actually there's two boys and 5 girls including me. but somehow, only one boy could make it to the first meeting and luckily all the other 4 girls were there. some were funny. some were very talkative. n yeah, all of them were very2 friendly.

who are your 'geng mentee'?
there is mirna, farah, izzie, amal , faiz and of course me. :)

the first meeting, how was it?
it was fine. the mentor was a bit late. so, we got to know each other's name. chatting with each other. n yeah, agak kecoh juga la. but, it was fun. :)
so, when the mentor arrived, she asked each and everyone of us to introduce the one who sat next to us. so, i had to introduce mirna. so the mentor asked for 4 things;
-the name
-siblings
-from where?
-favourite song
when i heard 'favourite song' i was like, 'errr, apa favourite song aku?' seriously i don't have any favourite song. i listened to songs , but yeah. i'll listened to anything that are nice and soothing. i listened to random songs.
" radin, favourite song? " - Farah asked me, since she had to introduce me that day.
" hurm, tak ada lah."
" cari je lagu apa2"
" okay, radin minat westlife " - i don't know how the word 'westlife' came into my mind.
" westlife banyak lagu dia. lagu apa? "
" hurrmmmmm. season in the sun should be okay kot? " - season in the sun? for real? idk how this title came into my mind too. lagu lama, n i just can't remember the title other songs. :(

so the 'breaking-the-ice' session started with amal introducing izzie. izzie introduced faiz, faiz introduced farah, n farah introduced me. okay this one make me nervous, because of the part 'what is your favourite song' tu. so when she told the whole class about my favourite song, which is season in the son by westlife =.=" , right after she finished the sentence, i blurted out,
"i don't really listened to songs. i picked season in the sun, which is a very old song, because there is a significant value in that song" okay, how does this sentences came out from my mouth, idk. seems like my brain is not functioning well on that day. apsal tah.
n yeah, there's no significant value pun in that song. sorry groupmates, i lied. n yeah, the mentor didn't ask me a lot like she did on the other mentee, which is good(?).
after the 'introducing-the-one-who-sits-next-to-you' session, the mentor told us her favourite song is 'getaran jiwa by p. ramlee' sep sikit mentor, cause we both select an old song as our favourite! haha.

n the mentor told us to meet her individually for the next 5 weeks. so, i'm free during mentor-mentee session! woot. baru tengah2 bergembira. tiba2,
"Radin, u meet me first, okay?"
okay, kenapa aku first? this question have been wandering in my mind since last friday. ah, nervousnyaaaa. :(
did i did something wrong? is it because of my favourite song? i don't know.
so the meeting will be on this wednesday (21/9). alone. in my mentor's room. cuaknya. :'(
hopefully, i'll be fine. doakan saya okay, okay?

so, that's it people.
oh yeah, haritu kitorang raya seremban. :)

it was fun! thanks amal and keluarga amal! :)

p/s : i'm still waiting for meja.

p/ss : elaun mara, cepatlah masuk. banyak benda nak kena bayar pakai duit. :(

p/sss : i'm still struggling with my bel's group. i'm not that good in english. :(

the first week.

2011-09-16T17:17:00.001+08:00

salam people.
apa khabar?

alhamdulillah.
i've finish my first hectic week!
seriously, it wass HECTIC!
the class will start at 8 and end at 5.
normal lah kan? i just need to train myself to get use to the schedule.

in one week, what happened?
so maaaannnnyyyy things happened!
nak cerita pun tak larat. :/

i just wish that the table will arrive as soon as possible.
tak larat kot nak study atas katil plus atas rak buku. :(

serabut sangat bila tak ada meja. :(

stay strong kawan-kawan.
mungkin ada hikmahnya segala kesusahan kita ni. :)
apa orang kata, bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian?
mungkin kita akan bersenang lah kot di kemudian hari.
no one knows kan?

so adios people!
wassalam.
tolonglah doakan kita supaya cepat dapat meja, okay.

p/s : seriously, i really miss those time during the asasi bila aku jadi assistant class rep. ketua gajah, aku still nak jadi penolong kau boleh?

p/ss : trial still tak habis kan? so all the best adik2 yang still trial spm. n yeah, all the best juga to the others yang nak exam!

p/sss : ada idea tak warna stethoscope apa yang paling cantik?. i don't know what colour to choose. surely, not pink!

First Day of MBBS.

2011-09-13T00:45:00.003+08:00

"owh baik, rupanya."
seriously people, don't ever talk to me like this.
can u guys just change your mind set about us?
korang tak kenal lagi kot kitorang.
n yeah, we are in a big group. so what? korang macam takde group2 juga?
grow up people! kita dah kat universiti, bukan sekolah.
*eventho aku suka panggil sekolah.
n yeah we're NOT rude. we're NOT arrogant. we NEVER 'lawan' seniors. bukti sikit weh?
tak puas hati? sila cakap depan2.

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so, first day of mbbs.

it's soooooooooo tiring.
ingat dah tak ada orientation week.
dang, we got one week of it!
bersabarlah wahai diri. pejuangan baru bermula.

p/s : imran jadi ketua lelaki mbbs. n nazurah ketua perempuan.
"sorrylah imran, aku tak dapat nak join kau sebab aku tak se'out spoken' kau. aku wakilkan nazurah kay?" haha. kidding people. :P

p/ss: second day, please be nice to us. amin.

p/sss : ibu will be having her regular checkup at hospital serdang tomorrow morning. please be well, okay? aminnn. :')

Puasa 6

2011-09-08T13:36:00.000+08:00

a good think to ponder upon.
masih merangkak untuk habiskan puasa enam ni. berilah aku kekuatan dan kesempatan, ya Allah. :)

p/s : 3 hari lagi nak start sekolah. feeling ; nervous. :(

bersabarlah.

2011-09-07T01:09:00.000+08:00

Indeed, Allah is with the patient.

Sesungguhnya Allah bersama-sama dengan orang yang sabar.

bersabarlah wahai diri dan sahabat-sahabatku.
perjuangan baru bermula.

p/s : hey, all the best dila trial spm 12/9 ni! sama tarikh kelas pertama! :) you can do it! don't worry. :)

p/ss : ceh, ada dua orang ni yang bakal jadi graduan UiTM ikut ayah. :D

Pengakuan berani

2011-09-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

assalamualaik!
ceh, pengakuan berani apakah?
bukan apa. bila beraya di rumah pakcik dan makcik ni soalan yang sangat common.

"kenapa tak belajar luar negara?"
-since degree MBBS "hanya" akan disambung di UiTM Shah Alam sahaja.

tension tahu? penat nak jawab. tapi apa boleh buat, senyum jelah kan?
okay, meh nak cerita sikit.

dulu, masa result trial SPM keluar,
budak2 MRSM ni semua dapat tawaran untuk memohon SPC (Skim Pelajar Cemerlang).
guna result trial.kalau result bagus, apply jelah. kenapa tidak?
antara program yang ditawarkan (untuk perubatan jelah, lain tak ambil tahu);
1. Medic Russia
2. Medic dalam negara (in UiTM)

untuk kedua program yang ditawarkan ni, medic russia membuka tawaran kepada 50 orang, manakala medic dalam negara pula hanya kepada 30 orang.

kenapa tak apply yang Russia?
okay. sejujurnya, memang nak apply yang Russia punya. Orang dah offer nak pergi luar negara kot, siapa tak nak? result pun layak. tempat pun lagi banyak. even, dah pernah bagitahu ibu dan ayah pun hasrat di hati ni.
setelah kekuatan dikumpul untuk mengeluarkan hasrat hati ni, ibu ayah nampaknya kurang bersetuju, dengan sebab;
1. jauh sangat.
2. bahasa.
3. bahaya (sebab masa tu ada bom)
okay terpaksa la menguburkan hasrat hati. sebab kalau apply juga, tak dapat restu, macam susah nak study pula kan nanti?
jadi, apply la program medic dalam negara tu, pergi interview. interview yang hanya confident lebih,cakap ntah apa2, nampaknya berjaya melayakkan diri untuk menyertai program medic dalam negara tersebut. Alhamdulillah. :)

kan lepas result SPM keluar, boleh apply lagi?
okay, memang betul. even ada je kawan program yang sama, quit, sebab join jpa punya program.
semua pun dah maklum, belajar asasi memang susah. lagi2 fast track (lagi2 bila lecturer semua ingat korang memang bagus dan ajar laju gila)! masa result spm keluar tu,dah lebih kurang 3 bulan program asasi ttu berjalan. setakat tu juga ada naikdan turunnya,kadang score, kadang tak. and yeah, aku antara yang tak apply langsung PILN under JPA. sebab apa? sebab aku tak sanggup nak start semula alam asasi atau sewaktu dengannya lagi. alang dalam kelas 30 pun aku boleh kadang2 'ter'lalai, ni lagi bila beratus-ratus tu?
yang kedua, yang memang pada aku tak bagi effect sangat pun, pegawai MARA datang lawat kitorang, nak pujuk kononnya. jangan keluar dari program fast track ni. segala janji manis ditabur. nak lawat every sem la. nak bagi elaun buku la. hurm, ada yang tunai, ada yang tidak. biasalah.
lagipun Allah kan maha adil. dah memang rezeki aku ni, kenapa nak sibuk ambil peluang lain? kira macam aku dah tutup rezeki orang lain yang memang nak sangat program ni la nanti.
jadi aku redha, dan teruskan juga program asasi fast track ni sebelum join MBBS UiTM tu nanti. :)

so, sekarang menyesal ke?
terus terang, tak pun. tapi tulah kadang, orang asyik duk tanya je. penat la nak jawab. dan bila orang asyik duk tanya, hah, mula la fkir lebih2, menggoyahkan pendirian diri ni je. :/
boleh tak nak print je statement ni, setiap kali orang tanya, sambil hulur, cakap "nah, baca!"
tak pun, siap2 tulis link, suruh dia buka.
kadang2, nasib baik ibu dengan ayah yang tolong jawab. thanks ibu ayah, really appreciate it! :)
pakcik, makcik, masing2 ada rezeki diorang. kalau makcik pakcik persoal rezeki saya, maksudnya makcik pakcik persoal rezeki Allah. *mungkin pakcik makcik tak bermaksud pun. mungkin hanya nak tahu kenapa. tapi, yeah, yang tanya sikit2 boleh tahan lagi. ni tanya banyak2. =.=

kesimpulan?
kesimpulannya, aku TAK PERNAH menyesal pun ambil SPC dalam negara ni. sebab ni memang rezeki aku. aku redha dengan ketentuan Allah. sekarang ni aku tak sabar je nak start degree ni. nak tengok betulkan MBBS ni sesusah yang selalu digambarkan? i'm going to make it fun, no matter what *walaupun dekan pernah tak yakin macam mana aku nak jadikan belajar medic itu fun* tapi, belum cuba, belum tahu kan? *untunglah, pernah cakap dengan dekan. ;) *
kawan2 yang fly luar negara tu, thanks sangat2 sebab korang naikkan semangat aku. :)
tengok korang punya gambar, buat aku rasa nak belajar betul2, kumpul duit banyak2 dan pergi kat negara2 tu suatu hari nanti. thanks a lot!
so yeah, kawan2 fast track! best je kan program ni? korang pun best!
hopefully masa degree nanti kita tegur-tegurlah walaupun tak sama group/kelas, k?

okay tak pengakuan ni? haha. macam apa je.
tapi serius, rasa stress macam nak keluar cepat2 je dari rumah pakcik makcik yang tanya soalan2 ni. :/
anyway,selamat berhari raya! kita raya sebulan kan?
jangan makan kuih raya banyak2!
and yeah, happy 54th independence day juga, Malaysia! :)

wassalam!

p/s : hey, selamat ber-fly budak France! bon voyage! sila balik lagi tahun depan kalau nak selalu buat reunion.

p/ss : rumah saudara ayah semua dah settle, tinggal saudara ibu je. :)

hari ini hari raya. :)

2011-08-30T03:32:00.000+08:00

اللهُ أَكْبَرُ, اللهُ أَكْبَرُ, لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ اللهُ, واللهُ أَكْبَرُ, اللهُ أَكْبَرُ وَلِلَّهِ الْحَمْدُ

Selamat Hari Raya.

Maaf Zahir Batin.

Jemputlah datang rumah saya. :)

ramadhan. :(

2011-08-29T03:02:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan is leaving. how's your Ramadhan been?
mine? Alhamdulillah, i feel it's a lot more better than last year, since i'm home. n yeah, a lot of free time.
eventhough, i'm facing conflict at the end of the month, but yeah, i believe Allah knows what is the best for all of us kan?
thank you Allah for this opportunity. alhamdulillah. :)
at the end, only Allah knows the quality of our ibadah. don't worry. always have faith in HIM.
u've done your best. inshaAllah, HE will grant you what you deserve. :)

Ya Allah, while everybody is happy waiting for Syawal. This slave of yours is sad cz Ramadhan is leaving... Please forgive me Ya Allah, please accept me Ya Rabbi. :(

- Izzati Suji

Belum raya lagi dah sibuk wish eidul fitri. Nikmati saki baki ramadhan ni. Belum tentu tahun depan boleh jumpa lagi.

- Zaki Shukri

nah, tak salah pun korang nak gembira raya nak datang.
tapi, ada lagi sehari je tinggal. jadikanlah ramadhan ini ramadhan yang bermakna buat diri kita.
mana tahu ini ramadhan terakhir buat kita?
kita tak sempat pun nak sambut 1 Syawal?
we never know.
so people, kita pun dah cukup besar untuk fikir apa yang baik buat kita kan?
jangan sia-siakan peluang ni!
wassalam. :)

p/s : aku rindu gila dengan crew 18.
oh ye, ada pesanan penaja.;

i've done it zikri! :)

p/ss : raya kali ni bertujuh. but yeah, sorang orang baru.

p/sss : aku lahir 18 ramadhan. #fact

Ramadhan Day 24

2011-08-24T02:42:00.001+08:00

well said. :)

tarikh yang sama. bulan lepas.

2011-08-20T14:49:00.001+08:00

assalamualaik everyone.
20 ogos, maksudnya 20 ramadhan, maksudnya dah sebulan dah benda ni berlaku.

benda apa? (haha. saja nak bagi suspen)
pergi melawat TGB kali kedua bersama rakan-rakan!
yep! kali ni aku tidak keseorangan. :)
n yeah, kali ini juga aku pergi dan balik dengan hanya menaiki bas. kudos kepada diri sendiri! :D

so. siapa yang bersama-sama saya?

itulah diorang yang ada on that day;
tenten, nell, apaw, azizi, hafiz, zarif hazmi, awanis, wan farah wahida, amirah zakaria, amalina ismail
tapi tak ada gambar semua lah. ada gambar dengan classmate je. sorry. :(
it was awesome. :)
got to meet teachers, ex-classmates, ex-schoolmates.
yang pasti, ini bukan kali terakhir untuk aku jejak kaki ke tgb lagi.
sure, kalau ada kelapangan, and kalau ada orang ajak. boleh je nak pergi. :)
it feels so good to be there. very nostalgic.

so, the highlight of the day;

finally got to meet teacher muhi.
owh well, she still remember me, haha. :D

"owh, you, cikgu still pakai telekung yang awak bagi dulu. awak nampak makin cantik!"

okay, makin tersipu-sipulah saya di depannya. *sorry, agak gedik =.="
ingat dulu, masa first join asasi, bgtahu teacher, then teacher call.
then masa asasi tu, belajar bio tak faham, terus sms teacher. ;)
thanks a lot teacher! nanti kalau dah belajar medic, saya tak faham, saya sms teacher lagi boleh? hehe.

kali ni pun dapat duit lagi. RM10. daripada Cikgu Arni.
dia nak belanja makan sebenarnya, but yeah, tiba2 dia kena balik awal. :(
and yelaah, ada orang tu sibuk duk cerita panjang lebar pasal study oversea tu kat cikgu-cikgu lain. =.="
*kidding, azizi. :P

and we got to meet Cikgu Ruzanah, Cikgu Hasliana, Cikgu Nurulhuda, the counsellors and a few other teachers. it was fun.
n yeah, dapat experience susun kertas exam untuk exam kat Dewan Bendahara kott! tolong Miss Durra. :)
lagiii? hurm borak2 dengan makcik pakcik guard!
dorang ingat kot dulu muka ni jaga outing. hoho.
ada juga borak dengan junior sikit.
tapi yelah, budak belum masuk degree, mana ada banyak cerita sangat. =.="

well that's it. saja nak share experience. it's not that bad to be in tgb lagi,
tak payah la korang segan2 nak pergi tgb. best. semua orang pun terima dengan tangan terbuka.

so, selamat menunaikan ibadah. kita dah dekat phase ramadhan terakhir ni.
bukan dekat. tengah pun!
ntah sempat ke tidak kita jumpa ramadhan lagi tahun depan.
make a full use of it, kawan-kawan! :)

ma-as salamah semua! *ceh, berbahasa arab la pula. :P

p/s : masa nak balik hari tu kan, ada sorang cikgu tu, dia invite azizi sorang je berbuka puasa kat rumah dia. padahal orang elok2 je berdiri sebelah azizi. agak terasa. but yeah, itulah lumrah kehidupan. husnuzon, lah radin. kalau dia jemput kau pun, bukan kau boleh pergi. =.="

p/ss: on that day juga, sebenarnya ada jumpa conglat kat MC.

p/sss : hopefully your mum will get well soon! will doa for her speed recovery. liver swollen, mesti ada sakit2 sikit kat bahagian abdomen kanan kan? sabar eh, makcik. :)

p/ssss : oh yeah, will be going to Singapore with C18 next year, kena start kumpul duit! weheee! :)

it's them. :)

2011-08-19T04:33:00.000+08:00

lagi2, perasaan bila satu kumpulan tu berdiskusi pasal satu benda,

kau tak boeh nak join.

it's either because you have no interest in it or u just don't have the knowledge.

diam lagi baik kan? :(

blergghhh. please get out of my head. =.="

-------------------------------------------------

Subhanallah. thanks Allah for giving me such a great family to live with.

may we all meet again in jannah. :)

*i just can't stop smiling when i see this picture. :)

senyum. tak perlu kata apa-apa. :)

p/s : semoga kau cepat sembuh okay, daripada kecederaan accident kau tu.

p/ss : dah masuk 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan. insyaAllah, akan berusaha mencari malam Lailatul Qadr. :')

p/sss : sorry, entry kali ni macam tak bawa apa2 makna.

Ramadhan Day 14

2011-08-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

:)
Allah always know what's the best for us.
don't worry, okay? :)

malam ni bulan seakan-akan penuh

2011-08-14T03:30:00.000+08:00

assalamualaik everyone.
it's been a long time i didn't do the ramadhan countdown, right?
i've been on tumblr for these few days, and when i'm busy reading and reblogging from tumblr, i seem to have forgotten that i have a blog here to update.

today, 14th Ramadhan. which means we've already gone through 1/2 of the Ramadhan journey.
*oh yeah, dentist appointment tomorrow. i'm going green. ;)
n it's true, when you're looking to the moon, and you see it's a full moon, then you know you're in the middle of the month.
seeing the full moon tonight, this questions popped in my mind.
"will i be able to celebrate ramadhan again next year?"
"n yeah, will i be strong enough to face this one whole year before i meet ramadhan again?"
too sad to think, kan? :'(

and i found this doa.

i just love how she wrote, "My Allah" instead of "oh, Allah". :)

insyaAllah, kita kuat kann?

so, there you go!

sorry for being quite emotional lately. :/

wassalam!

p/s : i still have 27 days to have the 'owh-i-don't have-to-do-any-schoolwork' holidays. yet, still lazy to open the terminology thing. padan muka la bila naik sekolah nanti menggelabah sorang2.

p/ss : if u happened to get an email from me (fathiah_radin@yahoo.com) about anything for the past few days. just ignore it. it's a virus actually. nvm, i cleaned them yesterday. so, it should be okay by now. sorry for the inconvenience!

p/sss : you guys should try tumblr too. i've been on tumblr quite a long time ago, but just become active on it last week. too many things to learn there! fun and awesome! :)

kau fly bila?

2011-08-12T14:36:00.000+08:00

assalamualaik everyone.
so, it's day 12 of ramadhan now! so, macam mana puasa?
still penuh lagi?
*tadi aku nampak 2 remaja lelaki bermotor bawak air berais banyak sangat. hurm. =.="

lately ni. kalau korang online, no matter facebook or twitter; status or wall post or tweets yang korang akan selalu nampak is.
"kau fly bila?"
"jom hantar si polan ke klia!"
"eh, kau dah fly?? tak bagitahu pun."
*okay, maybe kat korang punya newsfeed tak banyak pun. maybe aku je yang paranoid?

and come this one status;
"takpe, aku jagakan Malaysia untuk korang, okay!"

kenapa aku tak boleh kuat macam orang yang tulis status tu?
kenapa aku kena persoal kan rezeki orang lain?
kenapa aku tak pernah bersyukur dengan nikmat yang Allah bagi tu? uitm medic kot. bukan senang nak dapat!
kenapa aku mesti jealous?
kenapa? kenapa? kenapa?
*agak emotional. sorry.

silalah la husnuzon, wahai diri.
Allah maha mengetahui tentang kemampuan seseorang hamba tu..
mana tahu sebenarnya memang aku takkan mampu survive bila pergi belajar kat negara orang?
mana tahu kat Malaysia ni aku lagi dapat belajar banyak benda? (penyakit yang common, etc.)
mana tahu negara orang tu sesuai untuk aku pergi melancong je?
hurmmmmmm.

"Everything happens for a reason, the hard part is finding the reason."

- Unknown

Allah tu memang maha adil.

kadang-kadang kita je terlupa dan tidak sedar.

wassalam! take care everyone! :)
selamat beribadah!

p/s : aku gembira je dengar orang2 nak fly. please take care of yourselves okay, kat negara orang tu. :)

bila jatuh, bangun sendiri. :)

p/ss : congrats Esah n QueQue for your great results! nanti dah nak fly, jangan lupa aku, okay. :')

Ramadhan Day 8; Fasting level

2011-08-08T23:43:00.001+08:00

salamualaik!
it's almost day 10!
time sure fly fast, huh?
n do you realised i skipped the day 6 and 7? sorry, just not in the mood to write anything.
*bajet ada reader je*

currently , i'm reading this one book, "From My Sisters' Lips".

given to me by my sister. a few years ago? err? thanks!
still haven't finish yet. so far, the story was amazing.
a great way to kill the boredom during this fasting month.
*eventhough i still haven't read those terminology.
aih, go die la terminology. i won't see you until september. stay away from me. *boleh ke cakap macam ni? =.="

and i've found this on tumblr.

so, which level are you in?
insyaAllah, semuanya berada di level 3. :)

p / s : lately ni asyik bangun lambat. ya Allah, berilah kekuatan untuk aku bangun awal dan terus berjaga sepanjang hari. :/

Ramadhan Day 5 - haiwan puasa?

2011-08-06T00:28:00.001+08:00

'Puasa itu amalan yang hebat.

Binatang pun turut berpuasa ;

1. Ular berpuasa semasa ia bersalin kulit. Selepas berpuasa, dapatlah ia kulit dan rupa yang baru.

2. Ayam turut berpuasa semasa ia mengeram telur. Setelah lama berpuasa, dapatlah ia zuriat yang baru.

3. Rama-rama juga berpuasa dalam fasa perubahan daripada ulat ke rama-rama,dalam kepompong. setelah berpuasa, jadilah ia rama-rama yang cantik.

Manusia berpuasa dapat apa?
Manusia akan dikurniakan hati baru.'
- halaqah tv9

Malulah dengan haiwan2 sekiranya kita tidak berpuasa.
InsyaAllah, kita akan dikurniakan hati yang baru. :')

P/s : post tidak berwarna warni kerana hanya update melalui phone.
P/ss : agak lambat hari ni. Salahkan more soto ayam yang sedap. Haha. :P

Ramadhan Day 4

2011-08-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

"Allah has no iPhone or BlackBerry,

but He is my favourite contact.

Allah has no Facebook,

but He is my bestfriend.

Allah has no Twitter,

but i follow Him.

and Allah has no internet,

but i'm connected to Him."

;)

p/s : should i go to the Course Talk? :/
*masih berkira-kira*

Manusia memang mudah lupa

2011-08-04T08:19:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaik.
it's been a long time since i wrote a long post.

i don't know what's happening to me.
this few days (to be exact, last two days), i felt like i lost direction.
i lost track of time. i'm more attracted to social network, rather than spending my time with family. i felt super lazy to do anything, even i'm no longer read before i sleep.
it feels so different.
n yeah, sorry ibu, ayah, kakak dan adik. i know you guys quite angry with me yesterday right? with that phone call? i won't repeat those mistake again. :(

it feels so wrong.
i can get very angry even on a small thing. *i didn't shout, but yeah, i'll be super quite.

"No shaitons, here come the true colour"

- @tentennnnnn , 2/8/2011

this can't be my true colour right?
this is not what i should be.

eventhough i kept tweeting that i'm happy or so. it feels so wrong on the reason why i'm being happy.

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”

(Surah Al-Baqarah : 216)

i need to talk to Allah.
i've abandoned Him.
i can't let other things take His place in my heart.
"Cinta khalik, Cinta yang hakiki."
Ya Allah, kau ampunilah dosa hambamu yang lalai ini. :'(

p/s : thanks a lot BADAR and Ilmu Infinity for all those reminder. Allah sahaja lah yang dapat membalas jasa kalian. thank you too to those whom added me into those groups.

Ramadhan Day 3

2011-08-03T23:59:00.004+08:00

it doesn't hurt if you want to change.
remember, Allah always love you. :)

p/s : ingat, sistem barter, okay? *wink*

Ramadhan day 2

2011-08-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

Feeling better. Alhamdulillah.

p/s : hari ni dapat gambar daripada tenten. thanks. :) masih menunggu dari yang sorang lagi tu.

Ramadhan day 1

2011-08-01T23:22:00.001+08:00

"It's a cleaning process, I never felt better than I do during Ramadhan because I'm focused. It teaches me self-restraint and discipline."
-Saleem Rasheed

since, this year i'm going to celebrate the whole Ramadhan at home,
I'm going to make a full use of it.
inshaAllah. (if Allah wills) :)

p/s: dah 2 malam tarawih, aku dapat orang sebelah yang agak pelik. apa yang Allah cuba nak tunjuk kepada aku ni?

p/ss : if you read this, yeah you! ingat tak lagi kau nak bagi aku apa? dua hari lepas? jangan lah lupa. aku tak nak kumpulkan kekuatan nak cakap dengan kau lagi. bukan senang nak cakap dengan kau, tahu? TT.TT

Ayuh niat puasa!

2011-07-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

Ramadan is a month whose beginning is mercy, whose middle is forgiveness, & whose end is freedom from the fire of hell. #islam

- @IslamicThinking

jom niat, :)

نـَوَيْتُ صَوْم َ شـَهْرِ رَمـَضَانَ كـُلـِهِ لِلـَّهِ تـَعَالىَ
Lafaz niat utk sebulan puasa
“Sahaja aku berpuasa keseluruhan bulan Ramadhan kerana Allah Ta”ala”

نـَوَيْتُ صَوْمَ غـَدٍ عَـنْ ا َدَاءِ فـَرْض ِ شـَهْرِ رَمـَضَانَ هـَذِهِ السَّـنـَةِ لِلـَّهِ تـَعَالىَ
Lafaz niat puasa
“Sahaja aku berpuasa esok hari menunaikan Fardhu Ramadhan tahun ini kerana Alalh Ta’ala”

credit : http://www.tokgajah.com

p/s : Selamat berpuasa! rajin-rajinlah tarawih, okay? :)

Ahlan ya Ramadhan.

2011-07-31T00:34:00.000+08:00

" Barang siapa yang gembira menghadapi bulan Ramadhan, nescaya akan diharamkan oleh Allah Baginya neraka." - sabda Rasulullah saw.

Assalamualaik everyone.
so, Ramadhan is here again!
bulan yang sangat dinanti-natikan oleh kebanyakan muslimin.
bulan Ramadhan, bulan paling mulia, siapa yang tak suka?

so, have you guys watch this video?

*sorry aimanazlan, i prefer anwarhadi 's version more. keke. :P

so, what do you feel?
ada tak rasa 'We. we. we so excited?' haha.

semalam aku google. and i found this.

and this one question. "what are the fun things to do in Ramadhan?"
so, i'm thinking of challenging myself. to be a better person, inshaAllah. :)
that would be 'Fun. Fun. Fun' kannn?
haha.

so semua, selamat berpuasa!
enjoy your Ramadhan, okay?

Narrated Abu Huraira(r.a): The Messenger of Allah (saw) said:"... whoever fasts during Ramadan out of sincere faith and hoping to attain Allah's rewards, then all his past sins will be forgiven." (Imam Bukhari).

p/s : just now, i got a news on Azzahra Abdan's father, who was admitted to ICU due to heart attack. Semoga Azza dan sekeluarga kuat hadapi cabaran Allah ni.
p/ss : sorry miss Rabecca Black, i kept quoting your Friday song. i miss your song.

:')

2011-07-19T01:43:00.000+08:00

"Facebook bukan Tuhan untuk kita luahkan segala-gala kepadanya. Bila kita sudah tiada rahsia akan apa yang ada di dalam hati, nescaya manisnya berkongsi rasa dengan Illahi itu akan berkurang nanti" -Hilal Asyraf

short, but yet meaningful. :')

p/s : applicable to Twitter, Blogspot and Tumblr too.

‎

apakah?

2011-07-17T01:56:00.002+08:00

assalamualaik everyone!

as we all knew, malam semalam, malam nisfu syaaban.
orang kata, kalau kita macam perbanyakkan amalan malam tu, macam bidaah. rujuk (sini)
tak salah, cuma macam takde sumber yang sahih daripada alquran dan hadis tentang amalan2 ni.

"Dibulan Syaaban ini Rasulullah SAW menggalakkan umatnya perbanyakkan amalan-amalan sunat sebagai persiapan menyambut kehadiran Ramadan al-Mubarak. Digalakkan puasa sunat, sedekah, iktikaf di masjid, solat malam dam membaca al-Quran."

marilah kita sama2 meng'upgrade'kan diri kita. :)

so, last night, facebook!
out of nowhere, there's a lot of notifications.
and there's one that grabbed my attention.

korang tak boleh baca dalam box tu?
"Idani Faridan added you to the group MBBS UITM 9TH BATCH"

errrrr?
nak kena rasa apa? *sambil menggaru kepala*
excited? seriously korang memang sangat bersemangat. =.="
tapi, aku tak. aku rasa macam awal sangat je? :(

anyway, nice to see you, new friends! eventhough dalam facebook je. :)

p/s: semalam, chat je dengan diorang2 ni, so far, very nice la diorang ni. :)
p/ss : ±230 orang dalam satu lecture hall? for real? =.="
p/sss : ye, sayalah radin yang ada blog itu. *muka tak bersalah*
p/ssss : sekarang geng tgb dah ada 4 orang. (radin, zarif, imran, nazirah) *untunglah 2 budak 502 dapat jadi coursemate. 518? dalam hatilah. :)

senyum, tak perlu kata apa-apa.

2011-07-14T22:04:00.001+08:00

have faith in Allah, smile and everything will be fine. :)

p/s : all the best untuk result upu!

art of sleeping?

2011-07-10T18:57:00.001+08:00

last night, i was cleaning up my closet.

i found my long lost vivitar video cam! (i never mention this to ibu and ayah,since dah jumpa, barulah boleh cakap! hehe.)

i've been searching for it like one whole year, but on and off, sebab kadang2 busy, then terlupa.

so, what so special about this video cam?

it means a lot to me. :)

since i brought it to tgb. kat dalam tu, ada macam2.

n banyak sangat gambar orang tidur! hahahaha! jom tengok!
all the sleeping beauties. banyak lagi, tapi, ni yang aku rasa the best! :D

memang kamera aku kamera untuk capture orang tidur la kan?
:)
n yeah, ingat lagi video lompat tinggi pakai uniform sekolah tu?
aku dah jumpa! hehehe.

p/s : selalu dalam hati aku, diorang2 ni. :)

bersih?

2011-07-09T15:52:00.001+08:00

assalamualaik.
first of all, i would like to apologise if this entry might sound a bit political.
i'm not really into all these political things, but hey, i care about my country.
i care about Malaysia.

so, last night, i went through facebook, and i saw this status (lebih kuranglah);

"tak payah la nak berhimpun-himpun ni. tujuan kita kat sini nak belajar. alang duit belajar pun kerajaan yang support, lepas tu nak bangkang kerajaan, join perhimpunan haram. HARAM tahu tak? haram."

okay, aku pun mula rasa nak balas;
first, aku terasa, sebab aku pun budak tajaan.
second, aku rasa macam salah je dia punya statement ni?
tapi, aku diam, aku baca je comments orang lain.

daripada statement ni, aku belajar yang kita memang kena berhati-hati nak buat statement.
lagi2 bila melibatkan benda2 besar ni? apa orang kata, think before you ~~speak~~ write.
kita kena faham, tujuan perhimpunan BERSIH ni;
dia bukan under pembangkang. diorang just nak tuntut pilihanraya yang BERSIH je.

aku taknak ulas lebih-lebih, aku sedar umur aku pun tak cukup lagi nak mengundi.
aku just terkilan dengan statement sahabat sorang ni. senang2 je letak hukum terus.
nak sokong atau tidak sokong, masing2 ada sebab masing2 kan?
diorang pun berhimpun secara aman.

definitely, semua orang pun nak negara kita aman dan sejahtera. kan?
oh, Malaysiaku.
wassalam. :)

p/s : kalau korang cari macam mana pun status tu, korang takkan jumpa, since dia dah delete. mungkin dia dah sedar. alhamdulillah. :)
p/ss : nak cakap pasal duit kerajaan untuk scholar tu, lagi haram kan kalau kita guna untuk shopping, memuaskan hati sendiri? daripada guna betul2 untuk tujuan asalnya kan?

Jangan Menyerah.

2011-07-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

D'Masiv - Jangan Menyerah

Tak ada manusia yang terlahir sempurna

jangan kau sesali segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah dapatkan cobaan yang berat

seakan hidup ini tak ada artinya lagi

Syukuri apa yang ada hidup adalah anugerah

tetap jalani hidup ini melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia yang terlahir sempurna

jangan kau sesali segala yang telah terjadi

Tuhan pastikan menunjukkan kebesaran dan kuasanya

bagi hambanya yang sabar dan tak kenal putus asa.

have faith in Allah.
Allah maha mengetahui terhadap sesuatu.
apa yang direncanakan olehNya itu, mesti ada sebabnya. :)

p/s: setiap kali dengar lagu ni petang2, it make me think.
p/ss: to all my friends who knew about 'it'. thanks for your concern. Jazakumullahu khairan kasira.
(moga Allah membalasmu dengan kebaikan yang banyak.) :)

aku dan facebook?

2011-07-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum everybody!

suddenly, this question popped in my mind.

"betul ke facebook ni salah satu pusat di mana bermulanya semua maksiat?"

sebenarnya lama dah benda ni berlegar-legar dalam pemikiran aku.

and being a typical me, i'll keep denying it.

"tak semestinya, macam TV juga, as long as kau tahu limit, you're fine."

tiba2 fikiran aku makin meliar, bila note ni mula tersebar kat facebook itself.

Selepas kita mati, apa akan jadi pada akaun Facebook kita?

mari kita renung-renungkan bersama fikir-fikirkan bersama jika satu hari nanti kita mati, akaun facebook ini hanya kita yang tahu password hanya kita yang boleh access.. dan selepas kita mati.. apa yang jadi pada akaun fb kita? mungkin ada yang akan ucapkan takziah mungkin ada yang selalu menjenguk bagi mengubat rindu tetapi.. sedarkah kita gambar-gambar kita.. akan terus membuatkan kita terseksa di alam kubur? gambar-gambar yang tidak ditutupi aurat dengan sempurna macam mana nanti?

lelaki ajnabi terus-terusan tengok dalam masa yang sama, tiada siapa yang boleh deletekan gambar kita.. walau sudah bertahun-tahun kita mati, gambar itu terus ada.. saham dosa terus meningkat.. macam mana? pernah terfikir tak? tudung singkat yang dipakai tu, akan selamatkan kita dalam kubur nanti? legging dan jeans ketat, boleh selamatkan kita? baju yang membalut aurat itu, bagaimana? mungkin kini kita masih merasa tak sabar nak berkongsi cerita dengan gambar-gambar yang cantik tempat-tempat yang kita dah lawati di muka bumiNya tapi di akhirnya nanti.. semua itu tidak akan membawa erti semuanya hanya tinggal kenangan bagi yang masih hidup di alam kubur, semua itu tidak sedikit pun boleh menyelamatkan kita..

cuba kita renung-renungkan, saham dosa yang terus meningkat walau setelah ketiadaan kita di muka bumi sehingga hari akhirat tutupilah auratmu sebelum auratmu ditutupkan peliharalah dirimu sebelum dirimu dikapankan~ jagalah maruah diri sebagai seorang muslimah mati itu pasti persiapkan diri untuk mati itu perlu..

moga Allah redha dengan perkongsian ini amin~ renung-renungkan da selamat beramal :)

P/s: Sebar-sebarkan. Semoga Bermanfaat.
Sumber : layar minda

siapa yang tak takut kan? aku tak deny benda2 atas ni, memang betul.

and bila aku tengok orang cakap dia dah deactivate facebook, dia gembira, aku rasa loser pula bila still on aku punya facebook. =.="

tapi kadang2, aku marah juga orang yang deactivate facebook tiba2 ni; bila kita nak cari dia, tengok2 dah tak ada.

for me, facebook is more like a medium to communicate with people. macam handphone. rather than sms-ing/calling, aku pun lagi selesa guna facebook. especially dengan kawan2 lama.

on the other hand, aku anggap facebook ni juga tempat aku ambil nasihat daripada pelbagai orang, lagi2 bila join group yang macam2.

hey, orang banyak je berdakwah through facebook, go join them.

eventhough orang cakap facebook boleh menimbulkan masalah ikhtilat. but hey, look on a positive side.

siapa suruh stalk orang memanjang?

siapa suruh upload gambar and let others to see them?

korang tahu kan yang kita boleh set privacy to a certain group of people?

kita pun kenalah pandai control diri kita bila ber'facebook' okay?

so, semua ni sebenarnya terpulang pada kita semula,

apa yang kita buat dengan sesuatu benda tu.

kalau benda tu memang out of control, tak salah nak deactivate.

but please, inform la kawan2 dulu okay? mana tahu dia nak contact korang? ada hal penting ke?

one typical problem, bila ada facebook. =.="

p/s : don't worry, i won't deactivate my facebook. maybe the content you can see is very2 limited, lagi2 bila aku tak kenal kau.

p/ss : daripada facebook, aku prefer twitter lagi. :)

give thanks to Allah. :)

2011-07-02T09:21:00.000+08:00

Give thanks to Allah,
For the moon and the stars
Prays in all day full,
What is and what was
Take hold of your iman
Don't givin to shaitan
Oh you who believe please give thanks to Allah.

Michael Jackson - Give thanks to Allah

Salamualaik everyone.

it's been a week since the BIG DAY.

n it's already July, indeed, 2nd day of July.

why am i keep singing to those lines above?

apparently, because of this ;

i wonder why it say 'surat tawaran PENERAPAN'? macam kita dari tempat lain, diserap masuk uitm? haha.

okay, dah dapat offer letter,

does it mean i should get back to books?

does it mean i should start get my life on schedule?

does it mean i should less online and do more reading instead?

am I excited? am I nervous? i'm more to nervous actually. :/

i already missed them so badly . ;(

takpe, 20/7 nanti, jumpa lain2 kan?

22/7 pun. :)

let's make it happen, people. :)

them.

2011-06-23T01:05:00.000+08:00

they manage to make me smile. :)

thanks! :)

alhamdulillah. i'm feeling better, now. :)

what to feel?

2011-06-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

salamualaik people :)

so, a few days ago, i entered this one competition in facebook.
this is not the first time i enter a facebook competition, but yeah this is the very first competition that i really play hard to win.

why?
i can't really figure it out why.
the prizes? i-don't-have-to-ask-people-to-press-the-like-button competition ?
because it's pairing? or is it because i'm too bored? i don't know.

so, basically, what you have to do in this game is just click the right button of your mouse.
click according to the amount stated in a certain amount of time.
the no of clicks and time is very random. and the marks too. =.="

n yea, i forgot to mention, u need to buy the share-itz combo to be able to submit your entry.

great, isn't it?

so how did it started?
well, my friend, M, invited me to join this game. (wonder why M chose me?)
since we need to buy the combo thing, and i'm still in Australia that time, i thought that i'll play this game only for the sake of helping M to get the prizes. i'm playing for fun. not really hoping to win.
so, i played until i beat M's score. but the next day. the apps is missing, our scores were deleted. pfftt.

when kfc restored the apps back, n i came back to Malaysia. i bought the combo n we started to play again. at first i was leading, then, M, then i nearly gave up.
our marks will be combine anyway. we don't have to worry who's leading between us.

the night when the eclipse was up, i was really excited that i decided to stay up to watch it for myself with my own naked eye. but sadly, BP was raining heavily. so, i decided to watch the live streaming of the eclipse. (thanks HafizHamidun *the artist* for the link and Kiki sebab teman!)

while waiting for it, i can't help myself to stop playing the game. i continue to play the game after the eclipse too. i kept changing laptops to see which one would bring luck to me. (it was my father's! what a surprise!)
i clicked and clicked and clicked until it was 5 am. our target was to score >35,000.

because of all the hardwork, this is our final score; at exactly 5:05 am.

so, i already submit it. and we were praying so hard that we could win.
n yeah, maybe this will be the most memorable gift that i'll be presented to M before M leave uitm for usm?(eventhough M haven't decide yet.) fyi, M really want those ipad. as for me, if we manage to get any of those prizes, i'd be grateful enough. but one thing for sure, i'm going to make kfc pay for the pain my hand if we didn't win, especially my middle finger. hehe. just kidding.

kalau ada rezeki, insyaAllah. :)
let's hope for the best! Allah knows the best for all of us! :)
all the best to the others too! :)
doa banyak2! :D

p/s : mesti ada hikmah di sebalik kejadian mem'blocking' file sharing punya website2 tu. everything happened for some reasons, kann? :)
p/ss : aktiviti hack sangatlah cool. rasa macam nak join sama. for fun only! haha. ;)

Rejab. :)

2011-06-03T07:00:00.002+08:00

اللهم بارك لنا في رجب وشعبان وبلغنا رمضان

Allaahumma baarik lanaa fii rajab wasy-sya’baan, wa ballighnaa ramadhaan

"Ya Allah berkatilah kami di bulan Rejab dan Sya’ban dan sampaikanlah kami kepada bulan Ramadhan"

:')

p/s : i'm no longer mad at you guys. don't worry. :)
p/ss : Happy birthday Ezzalina Ghazali! miss you dear! tak dapat celebrate sama2 this year. :(

It's June, people!

2011-06-01T21:33:00.001+08:00

woa. it's june already.

time sure flies fast, huh?

so, june, which means;

1. i'm going to get a new family member by the end of the month.

am I excited? am I sad? i don't really know.

we'll just see what happen that day.

2. my visits to Australia NEARLY end.

sure, it still have a VERY few more days left.

insyaAllah, i'll visit you guys again, kangaroos, koalas, dolphins, penguins, seagulls and pelicans ! :)

3. i'm going to have 'majlis khatam'.

i'm so nervoussssss! hopefully it went well.

i really wish i can recite Al-Quran gracefully in front of people.

*oh please, don't come during this thing. datang masa pengantin lelaki dah datang, okay?

4. it's Rejab. ada israk mikraj.

when it's Rejab, it means Ramadhan is very near. in fact only 2 months away!

i'm going to celebrate the whole Ramadhan at home this year.

that would be great, right?

n not to be forgotten, Raya as well!

*oh, jangan jealous.

5. jumpa geng batu pahat.

it's been a long time since i met them.

the last one when i'm working in that orange shirt. tu pun berempat saja.

miss them so much.

boleh buat rombongan raya lagi tahun ni! ;)

6. i'm going to meet Crew 18 next month!

okay. this sound exciting, right?

but yeah, the awkward moment is when we're very excited about something, it didn't work later on.

yeah, sad to say, it always happen to me. :(

so, i'm not going to be super excited about this.

*but, deep in my heart, i really want to meet you guys. :')

7. 3 months before MBBS start.

excited? nervous? scared? enthusiasm?

nah, i feel nothing. zero. absolutely nothing

the thing in my head right now is HOLIDAY.

" what do you feel watching your sister study for her course?"

"biasa je."

i know, i'm not a good example for you guys to follow.

MAYBE, i'll start sooner or later.

see? i don't give a damn.

i'm just thinking about making a list of what to expect this month.

sure, it's going to be a very busy month this time.

all the best to my family and I.

* when i wrote '.... and I' , it always remind me of Miss Ng. ;)

so, that's it people.

have a blast month! ;)

ayat untuk difikirkan;

"Dialah yang menjadikan untukmu malam (sebagai) pakaian, dan tidur untuk istirahat, dan Dia menjadikan siang untuk bangun berusaha."

[Al-Furqan 25:47]

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P/S : all the best siapa yang apply USM! :)

P/SS : u guys having fun at premed? n budak2 asasi?

hari ni hari special Ayah! :)

2011-05-26T04:54:00.000+08:00

salamua'laik everyone!
so, today. 26th May 2011. it's my father's birthday!
i was being interviewed for this. so, this is how the interview was.

berapa umur ayah radin?
err. rahsia kot! let's keep it a secret. muda lagi. let's call him ~~Pakcik~~ Ayah Radin. :)

so, siapa Ayah Radin ni?
my greatest dad of course!
his full name is Radin Suleiman Bin Radin Ali!
he's famous! ;) cehhh! haha. kidding. :)
*kan ayah? pergi jalan mana2 pun kat bp mesti ada terserempak dengan kawan2 ayah. :)

what is so great about Ayah Radin ni?
well, when i said he's great. he IS great.
i mean, look how am i today. he's the one who raised me and my siblings up very well, together with my ibu of course.
he fed us, he gave us place to live, he gave his love and care, he scold us when we did something wrong, he sent us to great schools, he motivated us to study, he gave reward whenever we did well in our exams, he taught us how to behave, he taught us about Islam, and soooo many things that he did.

okay2, there's zillions of it. so, any memories u two had together?
before Ghazi come into this world (ayat ni macam salah? just ignore it). i kinda did some of what girls should not be doing. yeah, i mean, being like a boyish type.
when i was little, i always followed what my dad was doing. to tell the exact thing? hurm. i would rather keep it to myself.
but, there is one memory that i can share with u guys.
there's one night when my ibu was admitted at Hospital Sultanah Aminah in Johor Bharu, we were super hungry because we still have'nt take our dinner. so, it was quite late that night, the hospital already close it's back gate. there's a mamak restaurant back there. so, to get to the mamak, we climbed the pagar together. it's fun though. after we had our dinner, we climbed again to get into the hospital. i was actually think it was impossible to panjat pagar. but yeah, i did it! :)

anything you regret about what you did to your father?
a lot! i always tease him. recently, i asked him to clean all his office's things that he brought home. it's not an order, i was like teasing him actually. then, tiba2, his feet got swollen. i felt bad. i know, it's not because he's cleaning those stuffs that he got his feet swollen, but still, it got swollen when i asked him to clean that mess.
okay2, once i got back home, i'll clean it for you.
2 weeks before the big day, sure we can handle it, kan, ayah? :)

so, anything you would like to say to him?
yep!

dear Ayah,

happy birthday! i really love you, ayah! thank you for everything you have done! you always motivate me to do well in my studies eventhough i'm only going to make it in local university unlike my sister. whenever i'm jealous to see the oversea students' picture, i'll always told you right? n you'll always said this,
"ala, belajar local lagi best, balik2 tak payah masak, raya boleh balik rumah. and don't worry, orang takkan tanya awak belajar mana bila dah kerja nanti. oversea tu best kalau melancong je."
and yeah, i kept playing these verse in my head to keep me strong.
and for that particular reason too, u send me here, to see for myself. thanks ayah. :)
kita sama2 graduate dari UiTM kan ayah? :')

and thanks to you too because you always try your best to get to know my friends. who i'm studying with, my classmates, my groupmates, my bestfriends.
keeping track of my life. giving me advices. pray for me.
i don't know whether i can pay back all these things u had given me. but i'll try my best not to let you down. make u proud of me.
although sometimes i teased u about repeating the same exact questions, i really don't mind actually.
n minta maaf sangat2 kalau buat ayah terasa. :'(
thanks again i really love you. :')

may Allah blessed you always, Ayah. n may all of our family meet in Jannah. :)

"Dan Tuhanmu telah memerintahkan supaya kamu jangan menyembah selain Dia dan hendaklah kamu berbuat baik pada ibu bapamu dengan sebaik-baiknya. Jika salah seorang di antara keduanya atau kedua-duanya sampai berumur lanjut dalam pemeliharaanmu, maka sekali-kali janganlah kamu mengatakan kepada keduanya perkataan "ah" dan janganlah kamu membentak mereka dan ucapkanlah kepada mereka perkataan yang mulia. (23)

Dan rendahkanlah dirimu terhadap mereka berdua dengan penuh kesayangan dan ucapkanlah: "Wahai Tuhanku, kasihilah mereka keduanya, sebagaimana mereka berdua telah mendidik aku waktu kecil". (24)

[al Isra' 17:23-24]

p/s : i'm just kidding about the interview. no interview was held. how i wish to have one. haha. :)

Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul.

2011-05-22T05:37:00.001+08:00

salamualaik semua.

have u guys hear about the landslide that occured in Ulu Langat?

what do you guys think?

should we be sad?

for me, i feel bad. rasa sebak. macam2 rasa ada.

saudara sesama negara, sama Islam, cuma keadaan di mana kita berada yang berbeza.

ni peringatan dari Allah ke?

tiba2, aku rasa aku tak bersedia lagi kalau benda2 ni terjadi kat diri sendiri. :(

semalam, aku duk seronok main2 dengan haiwan2 kat sini, diorang?

diorang sibuk tengah siap2 untuk satu event kat sana, tiba2 benda yang tak dijangka berlaku.

siapa yang dapat jangka tanah runtuh akan berlaku?

Killer landslide hits Hulu Langat orphanage
(http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/5/21/nation/20110521165352&sec=nation)
KAJANG: A landslide hit an orphanage Saturday afternoon killing 13 and leaving three still buried.
Firemen and villagers managed to pull out nine soon after the landslide hit Rumah Anak Yatim Hidayah, Madrasah Al-Takwa, Jalan Felcra Semungkus, 14th mile, Hulu Langat, near Kajang at 2.30pm.
At 10.45pm, a boy was pulled out alive after being buried for over eight hours.
Rescuers rushing one of the injured children to the ward at Ampang Hospital
The dead and alive have been sent to the Ampang and Kajang Hospitals.
"Two landslides occurred simultaneously. All the victims did not have time to escape," said Selangor CPO Datuk Tun Hisan Tun Hamzah at a press conference at 6.45pm.
A total of 49 students and caretakers were there but 24 escaped unhurt.
The back portion of the orphanage where the landslide occurred
The orphanage was partially buried by the landslides at about 2.30pm on Saturday.
Meanwhile, Deputy IGP Datuk Khalid Abu Bakar said that rescuers were being hampered by wet soil and rain.
He also appealed to the crowd of onlookers to stay back and allow the rescuers to do their work unimpeded.
Bernama reported that in ALOR GAJAH, Malacca, Women, Family andCommunity Development Minister Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalildirected the Social Welfare Department and the 'Skuad Sayang' (Caring Squad) to provide immediate assistance to the orphans and family of the victims.
"I will get in touch with the police to obtain detailed information and the actual cause of the landslide so that my ministry can take follow-up action to assist the victims," she said.

i felt like a loser right now.

i can't go there to help them. :(

i don't have the money to help them. :(

what can I do right now?

i'll just pray. pray for them. pray that everything's going to be alright.

semoga, mereka dan keluarga mereka tabah menghadapi ujian Allah ini. :'(

"Sesungguhnya mati itu pasti, dunia ini hanyalah satu tempat persinggahan."

marilah kita sama2 sedekahkan al-Fatihah.

p/s : the song "get it right" kept playing in my head when i read all the news. wonder why. :(

Apa yang kita dengar?

2011-05-20T19:30:00.000+08:00

salamualaik. ;)

apa ni radin? apa dengar2?
yep. dengar. normally, kalau kita kat KL or Singapore, bila naik train/lrt/mrt dan sebagainya, kita mesti nampak orang ada tali2 kan daripada telinga dia?
no offense. but, yeah, itu realiti.
tapi, i was quite impress, kat Australia ni, takde la sangat budaya tali2 kat telinga tu.
bukanlah tak ada langsung, tapi bukanlah golongan majoriti.
bukanlah juga nak cakap diorang ni baik. but yeah, they make me think.

kalau kita bosan2, yeah, tali2 tu yang kita tarik sumbat ke telinga.
bila nak study, tali tu mesti ada untuk elak ngantuk.
bila kita ngantuk kat kelas, kita tarik lagi tali2 tu ke telinga.
bila kita nak tidur, tarik lagi biar bagi dengar muzik yang menenangkan.
bila nak pergi jalan, tarik lagi.
pendek kata, dalam sehari, sangat mustahillah tali2 tu tak singgah ke telinga ni.
it happened to me too.

so, apa yang kita dengar melalui tali2 ni?
mestilah lagu2 yang kita prefer nak dengar.
kalau kita minat lagu melayu, lagu melayu la kita dengar.
kalau kita minat lagu english, lagu english la kita dengar.

sangat susah kan nak jumpa, orang yang tengah ada tali kat telinga tu, humming to ayat2 al-Quran?
bukanlah tak pernah, i've heard it before. one of my friends in TGB.
i heard her humming to ayat al-quran kat dalam bilik iron.
serius, kagum gila masa tu. tapi diri sendiri nak lakukannya?
rasa sangat jauh. :(

then, recently, i read this,

(click)

إِنَّ السَّمْعَ وَالْبَصَرَ وَالْفُؤَادَ كُلُّ أُولَئِكَ كَانَ عَنْهُ مَسْئُولًا

Sesungguhnya pendengaran dan penglihatan dan hati, setiap itu – terhadapnya – akan disoal

[Al-Isra’: 36]

and it make me think harder.
apa yang aku selalu dengar sebelum2 ni?
takpe kot, sebab aku still tahu beza apa yang boleh dengar, apa yang tak patut dengar?
aku ada je folder ayat2 alquran dalam mp3 aku?
tiba2 aku hilang pendengaran, last sekali benda aku dengar nanti apa eh?

i'm not saying that kita tak boleh dengar lagu2 tu!
kena dengar ayat al-quran sentiasa!
no, that's not what i'm saying. kalau nak dengar lagu tu berpada-padalah.
as long as we know the limit, than it's fine.
tapi, kalau boleh, selit2 kan lah slot2 mendengar ayat al-quran. kan lagi baik, dapat pahala lagi. :)

so, apa lagi? kita ubah sikit2.
trust me, it won't hurt.
wassalam. :)

p/s : ada hikmah nya kan mp4 and mp3 aku selalu rosak? sesungguhnya Allah maha mengetahui terhadap sesuatu perkara. :)

pagi yang indah. :)

2011-05-17T05:33:00.001+08:00

salamualaik everyone!

i went through my facebook just now.

n see what i found ;

ayuh kita sama-sama renungkan.
dan ambil tindakan sewajarnya.
nothing much to say.
wassalam!

p/s : sorry kawan2 if kebelakangan saya agak pelik. wonder why. =.=" hormonal imbalance mungkin. ke some sort of social disorder sebab lama tak jumpa kawan2? :(

p/ss : dah sampai belum eh postcard tu? harap2 mereka suka. :)

Ayuh Dhuha! :)

2011-05-14T08:36:00.001+08:00

salamualaik ya kawan2.
eh? dhuha? macam kenal kan perkataan tu?

yep! dhuha! ala, waktu kita solat masa rehat dulu masa kat tgb time nak spm dulu.
tulah dhuha.

tettt. salah! kidding.

apa itu solat dhuha?
Solat dhuha ialah solat sunat yang dilakukan setelah terbit matahari sampailah menjelang waktu untuk solat Zohor.
tapi, kena hati2, sebab waktu matahari tegak, haram untuk kita solat pada masa tu.

apa hukum solat dhuha ni??
sunat mua'akad. iaitu sunat yang dituntut.

macam mana solat dhuha ni?
Solat dhuha ni biasanya orang buat dua rakaat je. tapi, kalau nak buat lebih pun boleh, salam, buat la 2 rakaat lagi, salam, 2 rakaat lagi sampailah lapan rakaat.
Cara solat, macam solat biasa. cuma disunatkan untuk baca surah Al-Dhuha atau Al-Syams. tapi, kalau macam tak hafal ke, boleh je ganti dengan surah Al-Ikhlas.
*sebenarnya ada sebab untuk menggantikannya kepada surah Al-Ikhlas ni. sebabnya, kalau kita baca surah ni ibarat kita baca 1/3 daripada Al-Quran. sebab kat surah Al-Ikhlas ni la letaknya 1/3 kandungan al-quran, iaitu akidah.

apa kebaikan dhuha ni? cuba cerita?
solat dhuha ni banyak manfaatnya. orang cakap untuk dimurahkan rezeki, ada yang cakap, macam nak recharge energy kita. tapi, yang paling tepat adalah sebagaimana yang diriwayatkan oleh Muslim, Abu Daud dan Ahmad dari Abu Dzar bahawa Rasulullah saw bersabda,
"Hendaklah masing-masing kamu bersedekah untuk setiap ruas tulang badanmu pada setiap pagi. Sebab setiap kali bacaan tasbih adalah sedekah, setiap tahmid adalah sedekah, setiap takbir adalah sedekah, setiap tahlil adalah sedekah, setiap takbir adalah sedekah, menyuruh orang lain agar melakukan amal kebaikan adalah sedekah, melarang orang lain agar tidak melakukan keburukan adalah sedekah. Dan sebagai ganti dari semua itu maka cukupkah mengerjakan dua rakaat solat dhuha."
* it reminds me of Prof. Haji Ahmad. :)

jadi tak salahkan kalau kita ambil masa dalam 5 minit je untuk dhuha sekejap?
ini peringatan kepada diri sendiri juga ni.
n yep, main purpose sebenarnya nak share doa solat dhuha ni. sungguh indah. :)

ALLAAHUMMA INNADLDLUHAA-A DLUHAA-UKA WAL BAHAA-A BAHAA-UKA WAL JAMAALA JAMAALUKA WAL QUWWATA QUWWATUKA WAL QUDRATA QUDRATUKA WAL ‘ISHMATA ‘ISHMATUKA ALLAAHUMMA IN KAANA RIZQII FISSAMAAI FA ANZILHU WA IN KAANA FIL ARDLI FA AKHRIJHU WA IN KAANA MU’SIRAN FAYASSIRHU WA IN KAANA HARAAMAN FATHAHHIRHU WA IN KAANA BA’IIDAN FA QARRIBHU BIHAQQI DLUHAA-IKA WA BAHAA-IKA WA JAMAALIKA WA QUWWATIKA WA QUDRATIKA AATINII MAA AATAITA ‘IBAADAKASHSHAALIHIIN.

“Ya Allah, sesungguhnya waktu dhuhaa adalah waktu dluhaa-Mu, keagungan adalah keagungan-Mu, kebagusan adalah kebagusan-Mu, kekuatan adalah kekuatan-Mu, kekuasaan adalah kekuasaan-Mu, penjagaan adalah penjagaan-Mu. Ya Allah, apabila rezeki kami di atas langit, turunkanlah, bila dalam bumi, keluarkanlah, bila sukar, mudahkanlah, bila haram, sucikanlah, bila jauh, dekatkanlah, dengan hak waktu dhuhaa, keagungan, kebagusan, kekuatan dan kekuasaan-Mu. Berilah kepada kami apa-apa yang telah Engkau berikan kepada hamba-hamba-Mu yang soleh.”

indahkan?
tulah, tengah try nak hafal juga ni.
n yep try nak istiqamah juga ni. hurm..

Demi waktu Dhuha dan demi Malam apabila menjadi sepi. Tidaklah Tuhanmu meninggalkanmu dan tidaklah Dia membencimu. Dan Akhirat itu lebih baik daripada dunia ini. Dan pasti Tuhanmu akan memberi kepadamu kurniaan hingga kamu menjadi suka.

(Surah al-Dhuha : 1-5 )

p/s: dah dhuha untuk hari ni?

credits; http://solatsunatdhuha.blogspot.com/ , http://www.eramuslim.com/ustadz-menjawab/apa-manfaat-sholat-dhuha.htm , http://hannesoshin.blogspot.com/2010/11/apa-itu-solat-dhuha.html , http://alivewire.wordpress.com/2007/06/09/doa-solat-dhuha/

Special untuk ibu. :)

2011-05-06T19:46:00.000+08:00

thank you for everything. :)
setiap hari pun ibu special di hati Fathi. :)

bila ada masalah, dapat cakap dengan ibu mesti everything will turn out to be okay, kan?.
walaupun kadang2 bukannya masalah pun.
saja cerita-cerita.
dengar ibu cakap je pun tak apa.

walaupun Fathi selalu cakap.
"tak tahulah nak cakap apa lagi."
ibu selalu okay je. walaupun Fathi tahu ibu terasa.
minta maaf sangat2.

i do wrote in that card too.
sambung dalam kad tu jelah. *segan*

thanks again for everything!

"Ya Allah, ampunilah bagiku segala dosaku dan juga dosa dua ibu bapaku dan kasihanilah mereka keduanya sebagaimana mereka memelihara dan mendidikku di masa kecil"

Abu Hurairah (May Allah be pleased with him)reported:

A person came to Messenger of Allah (PBUH) and asked, "Who among people is most deserving of my fine treatment?'' He (PBUH) said, "Your mother". He again asked, ``Who next?'' "Your mother", the Prophet (PBUH) replied again. He asked, "Who next?'' He (the Prophet (PBUH))said again, "Your mother.'' He again asked, "Then who?'' Thereupon he (PBUH) said,'' Then your father.''

p / s : ayah, i love you too. my sisters, brother and friends, i love you guys too. :)
p / ss : do you guys know? kalau kita tak baca doa untuk ibu bapa setiap kali lepas solat kita boleh dianggap sebagai derhaka? nauzubillah.

salah tafsir mungkin?

2011-05-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

berkenaan post yang sebelum ni,
"Kursus baru perubatan di semua IPT dibekukan?"

mungkin kita semua mula keluar dengan tafsiran sendiri.
"5 tahun takkan ada budak medic? nanti mesti ada 5 tahun yang takde HO!"
"takkan lah kita nak membantutkan cita-cita anak-anak yang nak jadi doktor selama 5 tahun tu?"
bla.. bla.. bla..

tapi, bila fikir dan teliti balik.
ada betulnya.
"Kursus BARU perubatan di semua IPT dibekukan?"
maksudnya macam IPT yang BARU nak buat course medic kan?
macam ibu cakap, "it sounds fishy there."
couldn't agree more, ibu!
and I really hope benda ni betul.

taken from mstar (click) (credit ; taqwa ) :)

BERIKUT ADALAH KENYATAAN AKHBAR MENTERI PENGAJIAN TINGGI DATUK SERI MOHAMED KHALED NORDIN BERKAITAN MORATORIUM PENAWARAN KURSUS BAHARU BIDANG PERUBATAN DI INSTITUSI PENGAJIAN TINGGI:

BERDASARKAN kepada kadar pengeluaran graduan perubatan dari IPT sedia ada, negara akan berupaya mencapai sasaran seorang pegawai perubatan kepada 400 penduduk (1:400) menjelang tahun 2020 secara berperingkat tanpa perlu penambahan kursus perubatan baharu.

Apa yang lebih penting adalah satu bentuk kawalan yang perlu dilaksanakan bagi memastikan bilangan graduan perubatan yang dihasilkan ini dapat menjalani latihan siswazah yang berkualiti supaya mereka menjadi doktor yang kompeten dan selamat untuk mengamal.

Sehubungan dengan itu, kabinet telah bersetuju untuk melaksanakan moratorium ke atas penawaran kursus baharu bidang perubatan di institusi pengajian tinggi (IPT) selama lima tahun, mulai 1 Mei 2011 hingga 30 April 2016.

Pelaksanaan moratorium bagi penawaran kursus baharu perubatan di IPT perlu dilaksanakan segera berdasarkan kepada justifikasi-justifikasi seperti berikut:
(i)Peningkatan ketara bilangan graduan perubatan yang dikeluarkan oleh IPT;
(ii)Kompetensi pegawai perubatan siswazah (housemanship);
(iii) Isu tenaga pengajar; dan
(iv)Isu Hospital Pengajar (Teaching Hospital).

Selain itu, moratorium pengambilan baharu dicadangkan juga dikuat kuasakan kepada IPT yang tidak menepati kriteria dan piawaian akreditasi. Pengiktirafan sedia ada boleh ditarik balik sehingga penambahbaikan dilaksanakan.
Pelaksanaan moratorium ini tidak sama sekali menjejaskan bilangan pegawai perubatan yang diperlukan negara.

Ini kerana pengeluaran graduan perubatan dari 33 buah IPT sedia ada di samping graduan perubatan luar negara yang pulang ke Malaysia adalah memadai dan diyakini mampu menghasilkan jumlah doktor perubatan yang mencukupi menjelang tahun 2020 dengan nisbah seorang pegawai perubatan kepada 400 penduduk (1:400).

Sehingga 31 Januari 2011, terdapat sebanyak 33 buah IPT (11 IPTA dan 22 IPTS) yang menawarkan kursus pengajian perubatan peringkat sarjana muda. Walaupun bilangan IPT adalah 33, namun jumlah keseluruhan kursus perubatan adalah 47.

Ini kerana terdapat IPT yang menawarkan lebih daripada 1 program. Contohnya, kursus berkembar yang ditawarkan oleh Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) dengan Universiti Padjajaran (2006) dan Allianze University College of Medical Sciences; ACMS (2009).

Daripada jumlah keseluruhan 33 buah IPT, 17 buah IPT telah diberikan pengiktirafan, 8 daripadanya adalah IPT awam manakala selebihnya adalah IPT swasta.

SEKIAN
MOHAMED KHALED NORDIN
5 MEI 2011

so, what do you think now?
yep, maybe kita je yang lebih2, padahal benda ni simple je.
IPT yang ada course medic, teruskan. yang takda, tak boleh nak apply untuk mengadakan course tersebut.
as simple as that.

cepat melatah la ni. sorry readers!
tapi tak confirm lagi pun sebenarnya.
teruskan doa.
inshaAllah, Allah dengar doa kita. ;)

n yeah, i should enjoy my holiday selagi boleh! hahaha. :)

p/s : kalau lah benda ni betul, sia2 je aku sakit kepala fikir.
takpe, ada hikmahnya. otak dah lama tak exercise. ;)

p/ss : PUSAT ASASI ada menganjurkan talk berkenaan MEDIC INDONESIA pada 10 MEI ini..sapa2 yg nak pergi talk tu kena maklum pada pusat asasi dulu utk penyertaan... sila layari laman web rasmi pusat asasi uitm utk maklumat lanjut.

(credit ; hakim )

Kursus baru perubatan di semua IPT dibekukan?

2011-05-05T16:01:00.001+08:00

salamuala'laik everyone!

so, what's your expression bila baca ni?
mine was like "i'm going to be fine. kerajaan ni kadang2 cakap je lebih."
then, lama2 tu, terfikir lagi, "gila lah. nak kena belajar apa lepas ni?! future macam dah tak ada!"
and bla. bla. bla. (mostly annoyed by kerajaan) sorry. =.="

Kerajaan bersetuju untuk melaksanakan moratorium atau pembekuan ke atas penawaran kursus baharu bidang perubatan di Institusi Pengajian Tinggi (IPT) selama lima tahun sehingga 30 April 2016.

Menteri Pengajian Tinggi, Datuk Seri Mohamed Khaled Nordin berkata, moratorium itu dilaksanakan segera berdasarkan kepada peningkatan ketara bilangan graduan perubatan yang dikeluarkan IPT, kompetensi pegawai perubatan siswazah, tenaga pengajar dan Hospital Pengajar.

Beliau berkata, pelaksanaan moratorium ini tidak sama sekali menjejaskan bilangan pegawai perubatan yang diperlukan negara kerana pengeluaran graduan perubatan dari 33 IPT sedia ada di samping graduan perubatan luar negara yang pulang ke Malaysia adalah memadai.

"Malah ia diyakini mampu menghasilkan jumlah doktor perubatan yang mencukupi menjelang 2020 dengan nisbah seorang pegawai perubatan kepada 400 penduduk (1:400),” katanya.

Beliau ditemui selepas menyaksikan majlis menandatangani Memorandum Perjanjian antara Institut Pembangunan Profesional-Universiti Terbuka Malaysia (IPD-OUM) dengan Persatuan Pemborong Binaan Malaysia (PPBM) serta melancarkan program IPD-OUM dan PPBM di Kuala Lumpur hari ini.

IPD-OUM diwakili Naib Presiden Kanan OUM Prof Dr Mansor Fadzil manakala PPBM diwakili presidennya Kwan Foh Kwai.

Mohamed Khaled berkata sehingga 31 Jan, terdapat sebanyak 33 IPT membabitkan 11 IPT Awam dan 22 IPT Swasta yang menawarkan kursus pengajian perubatan peringkat sarjana muda.

Katanya walaupun bilangan IPT adalah 33, namun jumlah keseluruhan kursus perubatan adalah sebanyak 47 kursus kerana terdapat IPT yang menawarkan lebih daripada satu program.

"Contohnya, kursus berkembar yang ditawarkan oleh Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) dengan Universiti Padjajaran (Indonesia) pada 2006 dan Allianze University College of Medical Sciences; ACMS (2009)," katanya.

Katanya daripada 33 IPT terbabit, 17 IPT telah diberi pengiktirafan membabitkan lapan IPT Awam dan sembilan IPT Swasta.

- Bernama

what do you think?
5 tahun sampai 2016 meaning starting this year la kan?
sekarang ni kena doa banyak2.
and if benda ni betul. i need a plan B for my future. what is that? i don't know yet. =.="
maybe math? hurmmm.

tiba2, tumblr pun keluar kan ayat2 ni. =.="

"Ya Allah, janganlah engkau timpakan beban yang tidak mampu untuk kami tanggung. Kau permudahkan perjalanan kami untuk menempuh masa hadapan yang tidak kami ketahui lagi ini."

p/s : Let's pray together, people.

p/ss :right after i posted this,

aku kena kuatkan hati dan terima dengan hati terbuka.
ada hikmah di sebalik apa yang terjadi, kan? :'(

Loser like me.

2011-05-04T20:58:00.000+08:00

feeling like a loser?

yep, i always felt that way.

nah, dengar lagu ni, you'll be fine, then. :)

Loser Like Me - Glee Cast

Yeah, you may think that I'm a zero

But, hey, everyone you wanna be

Probably started off like me

You may say that I'm a freakshow (I don't care)

But, hey, give me just a little time

I bet you're gonna change your mind

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way

It ain't so hard to take, that's right

'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name

And I'll just look away, that's right

(Chorus)

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth

So everyone can hear

Hit me with the words you got and knock me down

Baby, I don't care

Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out

You wanna be

A loser like me

(Cory Monteith/Finn)

Push me up against the locker

And hey, all I do is shake it off

I'll get you back when I'm your boss

I'm not thinkin' 'bout you haters

'Cause hey, I could be a superstar

I'll see you when you wash my car

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way

It ain't so hard to take, that's right

'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name

And I'll just look away, that's right

(Chorus)

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth

So everyone can hear

Hit me with the words you got and knock me down

Baby, I don't care

Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out

You wanna be

A loser like me

Hey, you, over there

Keep the L up-up in the air

Hey, you, over there

Keep the L up, 'cause I don't care

You can throw your sticks, and you can throw your stones

Like a rocket, just watch me go

Yeah, l-o-s-e-r

I can only be who I are

(Chorus)

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth

So everyone can hear

Hit me with the words you got and knock me down

Baby, I don't care

Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out

You wanna be

A loser like me

(Chorus)

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth

So everyone can hear

Hit me with the words you got and knock me down

Baby, I don't care

Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out

You wanna be

A loser like me (A loser like me)

A loser like me

Glee Cast Loser Like Me lyrics found on http://www.lyricsty.com/glee-cast-loser-like-me-lyrics.html

p/s : fyi, i'm a gleek. :D

kawan saya comel!

2011-04-30T19:25:00.001+08:00

haha. this entry is special for my friends.
to be precise, kawan2 crew 18 yang cool lagi hot! haha.
especially tenten la.
haha. :P

here you go!

comel kan? *wink*

cool gila kan?!
Let's make it happen, people! THIS JULY!
rindu gila. i guess target kita 10 tahun baru nak reunion tu macam lama sangat kan?
walaupun tinggal 8 tahun je?
i miss you guys! ;)

p/s : to be honest, baju kelas aku dah hilang. :( aku sedih gila kot. sebab baju tu cantik.
p/ss : to those of you yang nak add kawan2 saya yang comel dan cool ini. add jelah. they won't bite. :)

"one fine day, all of us will get busy with our lives, long working hours, less friends, less meetings, rare calls, no sms, no more late night chatting, won't have time for ourselves. at such a day u'll look outside your window n see the good old memories flash u by n u'll get a smile wit tears in ur eyes n u'll turn back to your work thinking." - aku ingat lagi last day sekolah, ada orang bagi sms ni. :')

Fact #333

2011-04-28T21:42:00.000+08:00

"prolonged exposure to blue light (laptops, ipad, etc) supressess melatonin secretion n elevates heart rate and body temperature, increasing alertness"

u guys know this? found this fact in marie claire, Australia edition, April.

read at MMC Library. on 20th April 2011.

So people, avoid any blue light before you sleep!

n yeah, recite the doa first!

بِاسْمِكَ اللّهُمَّ أَحْيَاوَأَمُوتُ

bismikallahumma ahya wa amutu

"Oh Allah, in your name, I die and live"

Doa yang simple. :)

2011-04-26T18:03:00.000+08:00

"بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الَّذِي لَا يَضُرُّ مَعَ اسْمِهِ شَيْءٌ فِي الْأَرْضِ وَلَا فِي السَّمَاءِ وَهُوَ السَّمِيعُ الْعَلِيمُ

Bismillahillazi la yadhurru ma'asmihi syaiunn fil ardhi wa la fis sama'i wa huwas sami'ul 'aliim

"Sabda Nabi s.a.w bahawa sesiapa yg membaca doa seperti yg trsebut diatas ini sebnyak 3 kali pagi pd waktu pagi,maka tidak akan tertimpa ke atasnya sebarang mudharat sehinggalah ke petang dan sesiapa membaca doa tersebut pd waktu petang,maka tidak akan tertimpa keatasnya seberang mudaharat sehingga ke waktu pagi" - Riwayat Tarmizi dan Abu Daud

when we made mistake,

2011-04-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

#1. admit it.

#2 apologize

#3 let go

#4 smile. :)

kan?.
Minta maaf semua!
Allah, ibu, ayah, akak-akak, adik-adik, kawan-kawan, kucing-kucing, and semua manusia.
:)

pre-med uitm fun!

2011-04-25T06:55:00.001+08:00

fun ke?
okayla. time tu kita buat baju kelas kan, kawan2? :D
assalamualaikum! :)

promote classmates sikit. ;)

okay. dengar2nya 22-25 April ni (hari ni last!) akan dapat surat eh untuk tawaran premed?
All the best budak2 asasi sains uitm yang hebat! :)
budak2 4 flat belaka ni.

so? premed? apa tu? ramai tanya ni.
btw, panggil premed je. premedic tu dengar pelik. haha. kidding. :P
so, here the FAQ!

what is pre-med?
basically premed ni introduction to medicine. korang akan di'introduce'kan dengan subjek2 medic. didedahkan dengan situasi bila mana nanti bila dah bergelar student medic. tengok2 fakulti medic yang bercampur dengan engineering tu (kalau dekat kampus shah alam la), dengar experience doctor2. tengok macam mana doctor2 kerja. lawat hospital and pusat kesihatan. tengok doktor kerja kat klinik. pendek kata, everything yang berkaitan dengan medic.

berapa lama premed?
5 minggu. 4 minggu belajar. 1 minggu exam.

premed ni ada exam ke?
sadly, yup! tapi, untuk korang2 yang score 3.5 sampai 4 flat ni takde masalah kot.
so, korang akan ada 3 paper exam.
1. MCQ (Multiple Choice Questions) - true/false. betul, dapat 1 markah. salah, tolak 1/2 markah.
2. SAQ (Short Answer Question ) - macam short essay.
3. OSPE (Objective Structures Practical Exam) - benda2 lab. akan ada station2.
tapi after exam, korang takkan tahu result, unless korang call fakulti medic nak tahu.

exam premed ni penting ke eh?
ini pun tak sure. ikut kata en. johari (coordinator kitorang dulu), exam ni sangat2lah membantu, lagi2 kalau korang tak score 4 flat. so, pentinglah kot. competition kan makin tinggi sekarang ni.

owh. ada exam. meaning kena belajar la eh? subjek apa?
yup. mestilah kena belajar. takkanlah uitm nak bagi free2 je masuk.
so, basically korang akan belajar tiga main subject.
1. anatomy
2. physiology
3. biochem
ada juga belajar2 lain, macam time management la, communication skill la. tapi subjek2 ni takde exam. tapi janganlah ponteng. berguna juga pengetahuan ni. :)

pernah ke orang tak lulus premed?
hurm. frankly, i'm not so sure about this. sebab tak banyak jumpa senior pun sebab dorang busy gila. taknak kacau. tapi ikut kata en. johari, ada je yang tak lepas. jadinya. ntahlah.

siapa yang ambil premed ni confirm ke dapat medic uitm?
frankly speaking, i'm not sure about this too. sbb hal2 pentadbiran ni, xmasuk campur la pula. tapi, kalau korang join premed ni, mmg akan ada advantage la masa first year nanti, since korang dah belajar sikit2, daripada tak tahu apa2 kan? (ikut kata seniors la)
tapi kalau korang dah join premed, tapi rasa macam tak sesuai, boleh je taknak ambil medic kalau dapat offer lain.
tapi, kes macam ni tak tahu la pula. (click me!)

so, what to wear?
bagus soalan ni. boleh sedia baju yang betul, xpayah bawa baju pelik2.
hurm, basically. pakaian formal je untuk budak2 medic ni, which include premed la.
lelaki - kemeja, tie, seluar slack, kasut formal (no tshirt)
perempuan - BAJU KURUNG, kasut bertutup. (tapi, jubah tu acceptable la)
n yeap, jangan lupa bawa lab coat! korang akan guna masa lab + pergi hospital n pusat kesihatan tu. nampaklah macam doctor sikit. hehe. :)

books?
buku... hurm ptar berlambak! haha. tapi, kalau korang macam rasa tak confident kalau tak bawa buku, korang bawalah campbell. berguna la juga campbell tu walaupun dia tak se'detail' yang korang belajar nanti. but, trust me, it helps a lot. :)
n yeah, bawa lah laptop. kalau gals yang dapat duduk delima memang heaven la internet free. (kalau ada user n password la) tapi kalau lelaki, duduk perindu, i'm not sure. ada block dapat, ada yang tak.
alar, korang kan kaya. bawa broadband je. :P

biasiswa?
urm, kalau kitorang, kitorang dah dapat MARA punya. tapi korang nanti JPA akan offer (kebiasaannya lah, kata lecturer2 dulu). lagi banyak daripada kitorang. don't worry.
*nanti boleh la belanja kan? ;)

here you go guys and gals! 10 FAQ. if u wanna ask anything, please don't be shy to leave the questions on comment section / chatbox / formspring / facebook.
i'll be glad to answer them. kita share apa yang kita tahu, xde salahnya. :)

oh last2, any advice?
hurm. have fun la kat sana. serius memang fun gila premed ni! mula2 jela agak tension. and yeah. korang akan dengan banyak soalan/ayat cliche, "why do you want to be a doctor?", "doctor kan takde life?", "betul ni, nak ambil medic?". serius soalan/ayat2 cliche ni psycho gila sampai buat kau fikir jauh sangatlah! n yea, janganlah cepat down. dorang nak test kekuatan korang je. kalau bukan kita, siapa lagi kan nak jadi doctor2 yang akan berbakti di masa depan?
lagi satu, time lecture, korang jangan malu dan segan minta lecture notes. sbb certain lecturer akan bagi bila diminta je. tapi bersedia la juga, ada lecturer yang tak bagi langsung.

till then! good luck and all the best bakal2 doctor! :)
hopefully dapat la satu kelas ye. n yeah, kalau ada terjumpa ke nanti masa dah join medic sama2, say hi okay. :)
wassalam.

p/s : tadi buka student portal, 12 september start kuliah. excited? =.="

Positive thinking, people!

2011-04-24T06:24:00.002+08:00

fuh! lama tak tulis ni. salam mualaik everyone!
POSITIVE THINKING! "dia busy kot. tak ada masa."
the reality, i'm lazy to write anything. haha. :)

it is true that we need to be positive thinking in everything. even if someone did something bad to us, yeah, we still need to think positively.
have you guys watch this video?

well, basically he's trying to say that when we see something, don't simply jump into conclusion.
POSITIVE THINKING kan?
there must be a lot of excuses (like he said ; 70!) why that person did that.
so when you see something, this is what you need to do;
1. suspend your judgement
2. consider what you don't know
pendek kata, POSITIVE THINKING sokmo!

so, an example here.
I got an A- for Mandarin, but I am a Chinese. I want to think positively why I got that result n I'm trying very hard to accept that 'you-should-score' result. suddenly this group of friends keep teasing on my result.
my normal thought ; i'm a loser n i felt offended. i don't want to be among them. i don't want to talk to them. rasa nak mencarut. $!@#$%^%$#@
my 'positive-thinking' thought; they don't know how I felt when I got the result. they don't really know me. they don't know I can't accept their jokes. maybe i deserved this for not studying hard for that subject? they are good in that subject, why not I learn something from them?

see, when you think positively on something, u'll come into so many GOOD conclusion. and somehow it will help you to think wisely before you act.
*kalau dah mencarut, tak pasal-pasal tambah dosa pula kan?

another example,
I was in a long vacation in Bali, where the place is very soothing that I feel I want to let go all my problems, works, having a nice, quality time with my family, etc. suddenly. someone text me telling that i should review the stocks that my company had invested, i should consider the feeling of our consumer. etc. etc.
my normal thought ; WT*, i'm on vacation. i want to let go all of this things. don't you get it? family come first in everything. we've done that for so many years, can i have this vacation time all on my own. it's fine if you want to review, but can you just do on your own. you don't need to bother other people to do that. i know you're very committed to your work. but, please? i have my own way to deal my work. n yeah, after this vacation, i'll stay focus on my work.
my 'positive-thinking' thought ; maybe that person wants to know his/her performance on his/her work? did he/she did something wrong with his/her work? maybe he/she had a good intention to remind me that I still need to see how our company performance? that if some of the consumers may have bad review on us and we should act fast before something big happen?

see,

why i wrote this?
i have no problem handling the negative thinking on things that happened to myself (eg. having a bad grade, lost my bestfriend etc. )
but, I still have problem handling the negative thinking toward my friends when they did something bad to me. :(
i simply run away or ignore them physically, but deep inside?
i'm trying very hard to improve myself. so no worries, people.

Oh Allah, thank you so much for giving me strength to handle all this things. :)
"sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang kami sembah dan kepada Engkaulah juga kami memohon pertolongan. - Al-Fathihah-"
and to you people, thanks for giving me a lesson. and help me to build who am I today.

wassalam. :)

It's okay daddy girl!

2011-04-06T15:48:00.000+08:00

괜찮아, 아빠딸 (Gwaenchanha. Appa Ttal!)
yeay. i'm fine, ibu and ayah and to all of you. :)

from this poster, most of the korean-fanatic will be like;
"cerita apa ni?! macam cerita2 orang tua je"
"bukan cerita korea biasanya pasal young2 couple ke?"
"macam boring je."

it's fine. same thing occurs to me too. cepat2 tukar review drama lain.
jadi macam mana boleh TERtengok cerita ni?

taraaaa!

i watch this series because of him! seriously? yep. serious!
who is he?
he's my crush since form 2. haha. kidding.
he's Lee Donghae. one of the member of Super Junior.
kalau korang minat Kpop, mesti kenal la Super Junior tu.
(some may call them Suju. but i prefer Super Junior more since Suju sound like soju)

well, basically this story of a spoiled girl who stands on her own feet after her father's sudden accident.
this stories show how she changed into a different person right after she realised she can't no longer rely on her father.

for me, this story is great. i learnt to value friendship in here.
i learnt how important to care for each other as a family.
and i got some tips on part time work too. ;)

in fact, in this story, there's scene where the dad said,
"can you send me to a retirement center?"
how would you respond if your parents said that?
the children keep refusing to his request but at the end, he wins.
instead of retirement center, they send him to a nursing center.
he feels he's a burden to his children that his children cannot go to work to look after him.
but yeah, his children did lied to him so that he's not worried about their situation.

so, what are you waiting for? go and download it.
and if u want them from me, datang la rumah. silakan. :)

sampai sini saja. adios amigos. :)
n yea, in this movie, i love Hyuk Ki and Wook Ki. :)

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p/s : memang menakutkan ke kalau kita fly sorang2?
p/ss : i'm going to miss you ibu, ayah and chip-u'. haha. :')
p/sss : cepatnya masa berlalu. tapi tak kurus-kurus lagi. :(
p/ssss : i can't wait for july! let's make it happen people! :))